January 02, 2005
auld lang syne. and a hangover
Was waaay too hungover to post yesterday. However, it was International Hangover Day, so I figure I'm allowed *grin*.
First up, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!! *sings, dances and lines blogroll up for snogs*
B) What do you think of my Shag-worthy summer skin? It's suummmmah Down Unnnnddaahhh, baby! This skin was a present from the gorgeously wonderful Cherry back in September. I've been waiting FOREVER to unveil it cos frankly, her work rocks. I was so flattered when she did this up as a surprise. Love your work honey!
And three, New Years Eve was 35 plus degrees celcius, and BLOODY BRILLIANT. Oh yeah, baby. Read on for chocolate n snogs galore, and throwing another shrimp on the brand new Barbie...
My mum gave us a tidy Coles Myer voucher, so just like almost all of our friends we got a Great Aussie BBQ for Xmas. So funny, 4 other people/couples we know were given BBQs by their parents. We must be at That Age.
And not just any BBQs. Four burner gas hotplate/grill BBQs. With HOODS. And SIDEBURNERS *faints*.
Last year's NYE was spent overlooking Sydney Harbour (see the banner above for a taste of that - gotta love Shag ;) so we didn't have any expectations for this year. As everyone knows, NYE turns out to be a disappointment more often than not. And last year... well. There was, and still is, no fucking way anything is ever going to top that. EVER. So at least we were starting off from base level this year.
And happily, I had a fabulous time. I wanted to put on something special as a thanks to everyone who was there for me this year. As you guys know, it hasn't always been the easiest.
So after a scrummy breakfast at a cafe in the morning, I went shopping at the Adelaide Central Market with 2 of my bestest friends for all the fresh goodies we'd need to throw a house party at our place. Prawns, clams, bacon, herbs and citrus, gourmet bum-burner sausages (yes, they're full of chilli *grins*), and the freshest fruit and bread we could find.
The boys were putting the BBQ up when I got home, and I nearly died form the love. It's a fabulous contraption. I now feel like a Real Aussie.
Everone brought along a dish to share, so we were treated to a fried haloumi (sheeps milk cheese - trust me, it's heavenly) salad and a fresh fruit salad from Amy, DELICIOUS honey soy chicken from Marta, chunky vegie kebabs from Alison and the most incredible chocolate 'cake' I have ever had the pleasure of trying from Kylie. Seriously. The thing was more like a thick, set mousse. *dies*
Everyone was also asked to bring along a bottle of spirit or liqueur, and so The Hubby put his backpacker bartending skills to good use and made all manner of wonderful cocktails and shooters all night. As far as I can remember, we had Bacardi, Baileys, Kahlua, Midori, Triple Sec, white and orange Curacao, Mozart (chocolate liqueur), Gin, both raspberry and regular vodka, Cinzano vermouth and both butterscotch and chocolate schnapps at our disposal.
There were Cosmopolitans, Mojitos with fresh mint and lime, pineapple Daiquiris, cocksucking cowboys, quickfucks, and Toblerones to name just a few.
At 10 pm, we had a minute's silence to reflect on and pray/send positive energy for the tsunami victims in Asia. Words can't describe the grief we've felt over such a massive disaster happening in our own backyard. But that's another story for another time.
After that, things got a little crazy. Most everyone except The Boy and I was drunk by 8.30, so we had to make up for lost time after our hosting duties were finished.
At midnight the snogging started, as you do, and I don't think it stopped until everyone left at 3.30am. I guess people were just feeling the love *rofl*. Actually what happened was that I snogged one of my best girlfriends, and then another of my girlfriends wanted a go, all of whom shall remain nameless to protect the naughty. Hubby got photographic evidence *aheh*. Don't think those pics will be seeing the light of day ^.~.
And no, nothing went any further than that, but I forgive you for wondering.
I woke at about 9 to the worst hangover I've had all year. Arrrggghhh. Mark and Amy had slept over so we all congregated downstairs for coffee and a debrief. The basic ocncensus seemed to be that everyone had an awesome time.
Goes to show that the effort of a house party, combined with no expectations and so many people you love can make for an excellent time. So, so pleased it came off so well.
Nicki rang at about 12 to come collect her car, so she and Matt dropped round and made us all pancakes while we watched Pirates of the Caribbean. Others dropped round during the day to pick stuff up or say thanks.
All in all, I can honestly say it was the best 48 hours I have spent since this time last year.
Two years in a row eh? Next year is obviously going to be positively sucky ^.~. Unless I've finally hit on the formula for a brilliant New Year's Eve.« I'm finished
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I'm glad you had a great time! Happy New Year :)
I know that I couldn't type that much this morning. Unless you waited until after the hangover to fill us in... oh wait.. I forget your a day ahead of me..
And I must confess I've been using this skin for sometime now :D
Glad you had a ball! Sounds brilliant - sucks to Sydney, who needs 'em :P Adelaide obviously rocked on NYE!
P.S. Hope you're feeing better
Hope the hangover is better.
Absolutely LOVE the new skin, particularly since it's winter here in Texas.
Aw, International Hangover Day struck you too? I might be one of the only folks I know who didn't wake up with one, no matter how hard I may have tried. *giggle*
Glad to hear your new year came in with a soft breeze, some sunshine, and a shopping trip. Here's hoping your year is filled with one repeat after another of all three of those!
"Cosmopolitans, Mojitos with fresh mint and lime, pineapple Daiquiris, cocksucking cowboys, quickfucks, and Toblerones to name just a few"
Would love to see recipes for these (I still have the recipe for the quickfuck, but haven't gotten the midori for it)
Greetings and Happy New Year wishes from this old ghost, Goldie. The new skin looks great, although I still think you need to go on a massive link-diet!
Regardless, here's to hoping we keep in better touch THIS year!
*h & k*
Well, it looks like you out-did me in the alcohol department, Goldie. I think I had three gin and tonics, and two or three shooters. And I danced until after 1am. Your BBQ sounds absolutely wonderful, and I envy your food consumption as I did not celebrate with any special foods.
Have a great year, and stay away from those veggies!
A very, extremely, awfully, late Happy New Year to you!!! I'm glad you had such a good time and I'm jealous - green with envy if you must know - that you have such wonderfully warm weather down there!!! It's about to snow here...
sounds like a blast! i miss my bbq - my apartment right now has no deck, but i used to grill a couple times a week.
oh, and i had to look up snog on urbandictionary.com. one of those terms this american was unfamiliar with. doh!
and finally, love the skin! it's 34F here, which is about 1C, so it brings me much needed sunshine in the midst of winter up here.
happy new year!!
You DID have a Happy New Year, didn't you? Hehe little minx!
Glad the new BBQ behaved itself and the cocktails went down a treat.
Catch up soon, G x
Happy New Year, Goldie!
You rock so hard.
Glad you had such a fabulous New Year's! Too bad we can't get a peek at those pics... :D
Hmmm... 5-day hangover...
Hope you're better soon :-)
It sounds like you had a blast. I was sick New Years Eve and really couldn't drink much. I was the perfect designated driver though. I hope your year is fantastic!
Love the summer skin! Makes me want to take a trip!!
Happy New Year!!
Missing Goldie Crisis: Day 10
i think something is wrong with my browser - it won't load any of your new posts and shows jan 2nd as the most recent.
I'm sorry that I have not been here in a wile, I confused your blog with another blog by mistake, maybe because almost every I been hitting my head, except for New Years, my hand exploded, but I'm ok, we was able to find all the pieces!
I happy that you had a great New Years, and I hope you are having a great New Year, with lots of fun, and clean socks!
I know you're there... I can hear you breathing...
...rather heavily, too...
What ARE you doing, Goldie? ;-)
Damnit! She's gone missing again. I told her to have a contact person. Grrrrrr
Okay, Goldie...we've fought through the withdrawals and DT's from your absence. January will be over soon. You need to start preparing for the next major excitement: Valentine's Day...Come on... Speak to us.
Hope you are well.
Sooner or later the batteries in that thing will give out, and you'll have to blog again to get your thrills ;-)
Where did you go Goldie? Hopefully the hang-over hasn't lasted that long
Normally I wouldn't complain about this sort of thing, Goldie, but your blog's naked :-)
Where arrrrrrrrreeeeeeee yoooooooooouuuuuuu?
Don't make me send over scantily-clad firemen with huge axes to break down your door and ravish rescue you :-)
Psssst! I'm serving drinks at Madfish Willie's. Stop on by :-)
She's been away a month now officially. I will now eat my own skin.
I'm just going to curl up in a corner in a fetal position, rocking back & forth & sucking my thumb. I'm still a couple weeks away from skin-eating :-/
Holy shit girl I thought *I* took long breaks.
Don't make me come down under and find you.
does anyone know what has happened to our beloved goldie??? I hope all is ok girlie!
Come back Come back!!!!! *throws tantrum on the floor*
happy valentines day goldie!
or day after since you're a day ahead of me.
Stuff like this makes people stop coming back. It kills readership.
Well Happy Valentines day for yesterday.
Goldie: Re: your email.
Commence skin-eating in 3... 2... 1...
Seriously Goldie can you send up a flare? I'm getting REALLY worried.
And missing you like crazy :-(
just stumbled on your website. It's cool.
Btw, come visit my journal sometime at http://jetslife.blogspot.com ...c ya around.
Goldie! I've missed you for so long! I'm worried about you, I hope you're okay.
... I see that Dino didn't work... dammit.... well, I hope that you are doing well, Goldie... you and your family have all of my very best wishes...
I have kidnapped goldie and holding her at ransom of 45 sexual favours and 2 dozen of thinmints
Fear me ;)
I have heard from Goldie via email. She is fine, just extremely busy at her new job, unfortunately, we all know how much of your time a new job demands. Im sure we all understand! Just think how good her next blog entry will be! 2 months worth of tales!
Miss you, Goldie.
Just sayin' :-)
A Shanghai blog featuring news and views of great interest
Yeah, I'm still checking in.
You should probably get a restraining order on me :-)
I see that restraining order isn't in force yet :-)
Hi Goldie! It's me, again.
I hope you are doing well and having fun doing what you are doing! What are you doing anyways?
I don't know if you know, but Sally and her parents moved to another post 321 kilometers away, which my big brother says is just a few miles, so I tried to walk it with my hamster Duckie, with his new leash, but we didn't make it, but I did meet a guy who looked like Edward Sissorhands, who had sissors, because he cut me and Duckie's hair, which made me so happy, and even my hamster Duckie, because he was smiling.
I can't wait till you blog again, but I guess I have to! Come visit my blog when you gets a chance!
[walks away sadly]
Ok, fine, I only come by to look at the naughty pictures, but I *still* miss your posting.
Let me know if there's something you need...
[sigh] I hoped that while I was on vacation, she might have come back :(
...still vigilling... :-)
Miss you like crazy, Goldie :-/
Ya think Goldie even checks her comments any more? :-(
I know I do on occasion... just hoping she'll be around.
Maybe she's taking a short break.
Take care, Goldie!
Is it weird that I've been checking this site for 8 months now? Perhaps I need an intervention.
Missing you, Goldie...
still popping in now and then - - we sure miss you, Goldie and hope you are doing well.
Where the heck did you go, nutbucket?
December 26, 2004
disaster averted by Xmas elves: goldie tells all
Ahhh... I didn't go with the DQ moniker for nothing, as many of you will know ;).
As it so often is with these things, Xmas didn't turn out as bad as I expected it to. I just found it so odd to be experiencing such strong, uncontrollable emotion after so many months of being unflappable.
You see, I am one of these people that anti-depressants/anti-anxiety meds work really well for. I'm on the lowest dose of a really good drug (Cipramil, made with citalopram if you're interested), and within 2 weeks of starting them in April I was mood-swing-and-panic-attack-free. Which was particularly brilliant throughout my poor sister's cancer issues. In fact, I felt like a normal person again. It had been quite some time.
I am also virtually side-effectless. About the worst thing I deal with is grinding my teeth and mild headaches. I was afraid I would feel that whole 'disconnectedness' from reality that many people talk about, but nope. Still here, still experiencing and enjoying reality (although my friends will still attest to my insanity, which I hope never to lose).
And as for sexuality (and you don't have to read this part if you don't want to know: stick your fingers in your ears and hum)... well. Libido = maybe 5-10% diminished (ie, barely anything) while orgasm intensity = skyrocketed through the roof. The fucking roof, I tells you!
There's always a silver lining to every perceived cloud.
So anyways, once I got over my lil tantrum yesterday and found some lettuce and a bloody chicken, the picnic in the park wasn't so bad. Quite relaxing really, in perfect 27 degree celcius weather. There were heaps of other families there too - I had no idea so many converged on Botanic Park to celebrate every year. We were lucky we got there at 11, or all the tree-space would have been taken.
So I hope your Xmas/Hunukah/Festivus activities were tantrum-free and filled with much fattening food and fine alcamahol. And, above all, love of those people without whom life wouldn't be complete.
Thanks from the absolute bottom of my heart to those who have been there for me this year. Every single comment, every single email, every single expression of sympathy, empathy, annoyance, advice, love, laughter and tears has moved and comforted me beyond belief, no matter if I was on the giving or receiving end.
Thanks for being a part of my family. Merry Christmas all!
Love goldie xox
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Merry Christmas Goldie!!!!!
The pleasure was all ours, Goldie.
so, if orgasm intensity is way up, why isn't sex drive? i don't know. i guess it's guy logic.
Happy Holidays, Helen!
Triple alliteration. I'm on linguistical fire!
Glad the day turned out well. That's always better than when you hope for a wonderfful day and it turns into a catastrophe instead.
I had no idea so many went to Botanic Park, though I shouyldn't be surprised as it's always a lovely, green and tranquil spot. I lived at Rose Park, so I often saw crowds on Christmas Day at Rymill Park, but never us, alas. We always did the dinner at the in-laws thing.
G'day - love your blog. Just found it - sorry, I'm a bit slow with these things.
Glad you had a great Christmas !
I love to hear you smile.
Glad you had a good day. I hope 2005 is a great year for you!
Sorry I haven't been here in a long time, but I hope you had a great Christmas, and got lots of toys, clothes, and socks!
I got a new mini pool set, but I just scratched it yesterday, like what I did to my other 5 sets before. My mom got lots of pots and pans to cook with, so she uses them everyday, to hit dad!
I hope you have a happy New Year, Goldie, and if you play with fire crackers, remember one thing, let go, because they hurt as I know!
December 25, 2004
Venting post ahead. Please do not read if you actually enjoy xmas.
Here we go...
How could something that is supposed to be so... I dunno... fuckin' JOYFUL, turn in to something so goddamn MEH?
I was fine up until about 4 yesterday. I was having a quiet drink with some new work mates, and rang hubby to pick me up. Called sister on the way home and somehow got upset at her cos she was about to wear out my wedding high heels on a dirnking expidition. I lent them to her about 4 months ago, but I only ever get anything back if I hunt it down.
so What does she say to me? "Oh you're just drunk, is this cos (other sister) and I didn't invite you out tonight or something?"
Needless to say, I got rather upset at that. It doesn't help that this month I've been trying a new, different type of med for my anxiety and I'd only decided two days ago to stop them cold turkey and go back to the old ones.
Ergo, uncontrollable crying fit. That ends with me kicking my shoes off in frustration in the loungeroom... and one of them smashing a wall lamp to smithereens.
Then we tried to go shopping for Xmas food. Tried, being the operative word. There was absolutely NOTHING left on any shelves. I'd promised a Caesar salad and cold chicken for this morning, and still, I am sans bloody chicken.
I rang mum at 10, who was all harrassed herself cos she'd had 4 phone calls from various family, and promptly burst into tears. All we'd wanted to do this year was pay for lunch somewhere and be waited on hand and foot.
However, my stinking step sisters, one of whom has two kids and lives with a criminal, said that 'not everyone could afford lunch'. Meaning them. So the rest of my mum's extended family, who I really like spending time with, are at the Hilton while we'll be at a feckin picnic in the park with people who I don't even really like and toddlers who are loud and demanding. The only reason we're even going is to make my mum happy.
The extended family then told mum their all coming back to her place after so we can all catch up. Which is nice, but of course that means more work and expense for my mum, when they've been waited on hand and foot all day (jealous much). It's not like they've had cancer medical bills all year... and my poor mum's just exhausted :(.
Happy fucking humbug everyone. I still don't have a bloody chicken.
Cue another crying fit.« I'm finished
posted by goldie
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[HUGS] I was never so glad when we didn't have to spend Xmas with my cousins after we all grew up. I just can't deal with obnoxious relatives anymore, so I don't. Don't let the bastards ruin the day for you. [MORE HUGS]
Awww, I'm sorry your day hasn't gone well.
(Hug). I'm sorry the day hasn't gone well. I would like to re-iterate what Ith said about obnoxious relatives, don't deal with people who will ruin a good day.
Lots of love and Merry Christmas.
(You could start celebrating Festivus and have a field day accusing them of being disappointments :-))
Girlfriend I just posted my own hell week not long ago too.
I feel like Christmas is a total pain in the ass, but I always get attacked for saying that.
And I get crappy presents.
December 21, 2004
movement at the station
Whew. In between Xmas activities (ranging from corporate to downright intoxicated in nature), new job, RedBug needing to be 'put down' (as it were), and then consequently having to buy my first ever new (to me) Big Expensive Sporty Car on the weekend... *breathes*... I managed to get all my Xmas cards written and sent. Woohoo!
*does a happy dance*
I really do hope the overseas ones make it there by Friday, but if not, merry new year to all.
Oh. And the car? A silver 2001 Mitsubishi Magna Executive Sports. Or something. I don't care. It has aircon and it's big and it's 3.5L and it has funky round taillights and we can take it on loooonnnngggg trips and damn, it feels like we're sposed to be taking it back to the hire car company.
I mean, I have a car loan now. And that whole manager thing... Does this mean I have to grow up???
posted by goldie
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Grow up? Never!
*is jealous of flashy new car*
OOOOhhhhhhh~!!!!! Congrats on the new car!!!
Everything happens all at once doesn't it? We're thinking of trading in the 'Ferrari' and are looking for something that isn't so low to the ground & has alot of storage space - but we don't want something staid & practical - any suggestions?
Hope Everyone has a great Christmas!! xxx
nothin wrong with magna's missy!!! :) remember my black one??!! I miss her dearly!!
I assumed a car loan resently too, makes me feel a little on the old side myself.
It's fun though. Car!
*sheds a tear for the buggie*
Congrats on the changes in your life! Change is good...
At least that's what I've been saying lately! Change IS good. CHANGE is good. Change is GOOD.
Ya know, I think we need a picture of you washing that car.
All bent over & soapy-like ;-)
Getting a flashy car means you don't have to grow up! Enjoy it!
har har... manager job, exec car - you'll be carrying a leather Oroton keyring and joining an airline club lounge before we know it! heh heh just kidding hon - congrats and enjoy that big car feeling! have a merry chrishmash and fecking awesome new year's!
I promise if you grow up I'll let you live vicariously/stupidly through me.
Manager? Grown up? New car?
Geez, why don't you just come stand over my desk and hassle me about not getting the copy layout done on time?
you absolutely do not have to grow up, not ever :)
December 14, 2004
work it baby
I've been a Manager for a week now. It's taking a while to adjust.
I mean the first thing I did, of course, was think back to all the managers I haven't liked or didn't work well with. Sadly, they slightly outnumbered those on the positive side. And it's not like I'm grotesquely detestable in the workplace or anything.
This makes me rather nervous.
Also, when I won the job, it was over a fantastic guy in my team who has worked there for 10 years and is about 15 years my senior. He's been amazing about the whole thing, but of course he's bitterly disappointed, and being that I'm a cutthroat career girl with ...erm... feelings, well. It hasn't made me any less nervous.
Then I asked myself the following question. Do PR/Communication/Marketing Managers have blogs like this one? Cos I think I'm going to have to seriously reconsider how anonymous my online diaries are if I want to stay in an occupation where image is pretty much critical to getting the job done...
*sigh* I'm confuzzled!« I'm finished
posted by goldie
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You'd actually consider scaling back DQ because of image?! No way lady.
DQ is more "you" than anything else - if anything, you need to bring DQ into the workplace! Believe me, the old wrinkly public servants who report to you now will love it.
Bow before the racy, lacey DQ Manager-type! Woohoo.
*sniff* I knew her when she was a humble Uni bum *sniff*
managing people is the hardest part of my job, for sure. give me giant catastrophes and an immediate deadline over having to write someone up or arranging schedules any time.
on a side note, i do hope dq stays as uncensored as we have been accustomed in the past!
I know you'll have to decide how much to censor yourself - since we aren't in the same situation as you... as for being nervous on the job - just ask yourself "what is the very worst thing that could happen to me?" Can you live through it? Then it's not a problem. ;-)
When my daughter was interviewing for a promotion, she called me on the way there... she was saying - OMG I'm sooo scared. I said, well, they aren't going to strip you naked and put you out in the parking lot... so what's the problem??? I asked if she'd be heartbroken is they fired her on the spot? No? Since that's about the worst I can imagine for that situation - just relax... Not only did she get the job, they said she was one of the best interviews they'd ever done. It's all a mind game - very very little is as bad as the worst you can imagine - so then things become easier. *grin*
I tell ya, I don't get here for a few days and suddenly you're moving up in the world - LOL. Congrats on the job!!!
I'm glad you are doing so great in your new position - - but then I never had a doubt about that - - just as I've no doubt you'll do what you think is best about DQ and that will be best :)
God that sounded sappy! lol
Huh. I never EVER mention the name of my company. I never post from work. The rest is just crap that happens to me. I say keep separate what's separate! But you need to do what's right for you...
Like you said, it's a diary.
I love that you are a manager! *yes Goldie, right away Goldie*
That's a good point, Goldie, as much as I'd miss your posts. However unfair it would be, that could very well be a factor but if you just don't post anything work related then perhaps that would work, too.
Being serious for once: My employers know about BTB. They ask that I not mention the company or any of our clients by name, refer to our product, or do anything that would associate the company with the opinions and other junk expressed on my blog.
I think it entirely reasonable. I do wonder why any employer could ask for anything more. Do you have reason to think yours would?
thanks everyone. I guess I just have to decide about being upfront about it or not. My problem is that a lot of my opinions are not something I would exactly express to the CEO or our stakeholders etc. Eg, the whole naughtiness thing *sigh*.
Besides, I feel like it's my business, even though it's out in public for all to see, yanno?
December 06, 2004
xmas on the beach
I love it that I can go to an Xmas lunch and come back sunburnt.
"I love a sunburnt country
A land of sweeping plains
Of ragged mountain ranges
Of droughts and flooding rains."
[/snippet of famous poem 'bout my fabulous country]
Course, we seem to have the 'flooding rains' bit happening here today. Which is grand cos I thrive on variety. Also, I dont have to water the chillis. Bonus!
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Ha! When I lived in Arizona, I felt like THAT must have been warm for Christmas-time. Stringing a light on a palm tree just isn't the same.
Soak up the sun! Have a cold beer! Happy holidays!
Same here in LA...but raining too.
Rain, snow, mud....
I thought it was Southern CA!
It's rainy here.
So grey, it makes me want to weep.
I'll take your sunburnt lunch anyday :)
Just out of curiosity, how are the mosquitoes down there?
It's rainy & cold here. Yuk! But it must be nice to get a suntan at Christmas!
Louisiana sucks!! I want to get some X-mas sunburn too!!
December 02, 2004
...my name? erm...
Right. Yanno Mercury, that planet that rules the communication and mental abilities? Well, he's on his third retrograde period for the year right now. Right up until Dec 20.
Expect road rage, mixed messages, arguments with partners, broken photocopiers, internet issues, fist fights with other christmas shoppers, and to feel basically like an eejit for the next while. Especially if you happen to be a Gemini (like me) or a Virgo, as Mercury is their ruling planet.
Oh joy. What a fabulous day to have a job interview.
Nah, it's not all bad. They've advertised to fill the job I'm currently doing on a permanent basis, and I know they think I'm OK *yay*. But I have written out a cheat-sheet, just in case... :D
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I know you're going to do great! You're probably the favorite right now, and I'm CERTAIN this is just a technicality!
You go, girl! Give 'em everything you got!
Possession is 9/10ths of the law as they say! You've got it in the bag girl!
You'll do great! Horoscope be damned!
Look, I'm just gonna grab a couple big muscly guys & have a "talk" with this Mercury fella.
NOBODY hassles my Goldie!
Rose: aw you sweetie! I'm not sure you're right, but a little positive energy always helps!
Lyndal: exactly! I've been sneakily hoping my incumbancy (is that a word?) would sway the powers that be.
Gweny: shhh! It'll hear you! *horrified look*
Harv: *swoons* I love it when a man acts all chivalrous. Gets me all tingly!
Weird. I had a job interview on the 21st and got hired as a manager in training. Who on earth puts Geminis like us in charge of anything?
November 30, 2004
candy cane anyone?
OK, OK, I know. I've been a little flakey lately.
Not to mention a bit of a cock-tease. What with the flirty comments I whispered to you in my last entry, only to abandon you, breath baited, pupils dilated, obsessively hitting refresh... just waiting to read what I'd write next...
Hey, a girl can dream, can't she? ;)
In all seriousness, I do deserve a spanking. Does it help if I say I'm sitting here in sopping wet cotton lycra, just waiting to peel off the sodden layers... (hey. It was raining after Pilates, OK)? No?
Well how about my cheeky new holiday layout, courtesy of the Moxielicious Julie? (if you can't see it, click here. I promise it'll leave a lasting impression). C'mon! That must make up for something...
Oh. OK. Fair enough. I understand. I guess all a girl can do is
bribe, kiss ass and generally suck up big time work extra hard to regain your trust. Suggestions welcome!!!
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Suggestions for what? I'm confused.
I would never say the words cock-tease, because my mom would wash my mouth out with Irish Spring, which does not taste so good as I know!
That picture of you in your underwear with you butt showing looks great, Goldie, but I would never show my butt on my blog, don't want to scare my readers away!
I hope you had a nice weekend, Goldie, and a happy Thanksgiving, that's if you celebrate it.
Have a nice day, ok!
So it IS true... all girls from Britain or Australia ARE amenable to a good spanking! *chuckle* Now just let me dig through the drawer for a suitable implement...
So you're not dead after all. I'm so angry with you right now. I don't think even a spanking would cheer me up.
Dammit. See what you've done? I hope you're proud of yourself. Now, I've got to go beat the crap out of Maine. Maybe that will make me feel better.
All is forgiven ;-)
Ow. I'm not sure I earned that ass-whipping, but I certainly got it.
I suppose to atone you could try updating daily for 10 days solid. That'd be OK. Or maybe buying my album.
I missed you, but figured you were busy with the new job thing.... How's all that?
Aw, of course we forgive you. It is, after all, the season of forgiveness and brotherhood and eggnog. And who can't forgive someone over a good glass of 'nog?
I'm glad things are going so well for you that you're too busy to blog. It's a good problem to have!!
I'm loving the Christmas booty skin! Too cute!
Woo! Love the skin (although I already saw it on blogmoxie's portfolio page - heh. I'm a cheater!!)
I'd say to make it up to us, you should just give us a little more of the Goldie fabulousness we've all grown accustom to. Don't leave us hangin', babe. You cock-tease!
It you're a "cock-tease," for not posting...
Does that mean we all have "blue" eyes?
Everyone needs a good piece of ass every now and then! Love the new skin & hope the new job is going well.
November 12, 2004
OMG quick post cos I'm late, yet feeling rather guilty and sad about my lack of postage lately...
1) My new job ro0x0rs my bo0x0rs. Oh yeah baby. My team mate and my bpss are great. The work is real. And they have no standards for comms/design, let alone picky people with mnothing better to do, so we get to make it all up from scratch. Woohoo!
2) The new wardrobe is going down a treat *grin*
3) Although I had a very Bridget Jonesian moment the other night at a networking do.
Me (to fabulously funky copywriter): sooo... you must hate coming to these things sometimes and having to chat with erm... people you don't know, right?
(dies of embarrasment ... and that was mild. I think I blocked out thge more excrutiating stuff I said to him)
4) They've advertised my role for permanent filling, and the application is due today, hence my spending time on this puter doing other things. Fingers crossed...
5) Is it friggin' Friday already? I'd forgotten what it was like to be so happy at work that you don't notice the days slipping away. Really. I've been like a happy nutty bouncy extrovertedly giggly thing the whole fortnight. I think I'm still adjusting to this whole 'new me' thing I've got going on.
Argh. Gotta run!
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Woo!! I am so happy for you! It is always so great to have a job that you love!!!
Speaking of Bridget Jones.. are you going to catch the new one soon? I'm dying to see it!
Great to hear you are enjoying the new job, chica. Hope it continues to be fulfilling :)
Good for you, Goldie! I'm so glad you're happy in your new job. Hope it continues to be great!
Finners crossed fer ya. Keep up the good news!
Let me tell you what, isn't it just a completely fabulous feeling? When there are things like GREAT FUN GOOD YAY things keeping you away from the blog, there's no reason to apologize!!
Oh I'm so glad the job is going well. Looks like you're blogging about as much as I'm getting time to read blogs - so we're even *grin*. I've been so busy I'm cross-eyed (not my normal state - really). I have several minutes today so I'm trying to catch up... I'll never be able to do it. Anyhow, the job sounds fabulous! I'm so happy for you.
November 03, 2004
i'll be back. erm... soon.
Aheh. Can't blog, busy. I'll return to the land of the
living blogging this evening.
Don't you hate it when people post a nothing-entry? Yeah, me too.« I'm finished
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Actually there are a lot of blogs quiet today - Voting day in the U.S.A today.
Beats sitting around wondering if people are alright.
Yes those posts are annoying, but they also keep me looking forward to the long, detailed post to make up for all the silence!
Hey, that's what the Bonfire of the Vanities weekly round-up is for :-)
Anyway, a "still breathing" is ok at 48 hours, and mandatory after 120, assuming it's not prevented by computer problems.
It's better to have a nothing entry than nothing, I think.
I'm posting on my blog later to.
Glad to know you're still out there Goldie! Can't wait to hear how your new job is going.
I post like that all the time because I never have anything to say.
goldie!!! i have finally finally managed to catch up with your 'new' blog, sorry I am so slack hon but I have just been on a total goldie binge and read all your archived posts all the way back to august! i think you are brilliant not only to have survived everything this year but also to have learned from it as well. you rock. and i think your skins are fab and i love your pics and of course all your posts and well, everything really :-) keep on keeping on babe!
popping by to say hi and see you are away - - hope to catch ya soon :)
I think that a trip to Phoenix is in order for you. We'll go out for drinks and good food... ok skip the food.. we'll drink ourselves into the gutter and let Gary come pick us up... that is unless we find a few innocent guys first :D
shot through the heart! and you're to blame, darlin you give love a bad name.
hey, a nothing post begs for a nothing comment.
Lordie, I am SUCH a liar aren't I?>???
evil!goldie indeed. I love youse all!
October 25, 2004
the wheel keeps on turning
Last week, things happen very quickly after I resigned. Wednesday afternoon saw my supervisor beckoning me into a spare office (inspiring the usual guilty, fearful flutter in my belly) only to offer me a quick exit if I so wanted.
"Well you're leaving to go contracting, there's not much work on here, so if you can get everything flat by Friday, you can go if you'd like to. What do you think?"
And that, as they say, was that.
Thursday was a frenzy of getting my final Newsletter written and edited for the designers, and Friday consisted of some quick edits, a few questions, an interview at my second recruitment agency, and gutting out my pigsty of a desk. Let's not even mention the disorganised jumble that was (and still is) 'My Documents'.
Oh. And I called my other recruitment agency to let them know I was finishing a week early. Here's how that call went:
goldie: Hi, I'm calling for Samantha to let her know I'm done with this place early.
Receptionist: Oh good! Let me just see if there's anything in the system for you already.
Receptionist: Ah... Rachel actually has a 3 month government contract as a Communications Manager that is likely to go ahead.
goldie: *indraws breath at the mention of that currently dirtyword 'government'*
Rachel: Hi. They'd love you. It's a career move. They're paying $6-8 more an hour than your previous salary, so no 3-steps-backwards money-wise. Oh. And did I mention it's in IT contracting for whole-of-government? I reckon you'd have a ball.
goldie: *considers* well, maybe it doesn't sound tooo bad...
Rachel: Great. I'll call you.
So I was a little overwhelmed. I almost feel Maine-like*. I mean, I'd kinda gotten used to the whole Internode idea. But hey. I'm spontaneous.
Later Friday afternoon...
Rachel: OK, they did love you, just like I said. They wanted you in for an interview with senior management at 9am Monday morning, but I convinced them you'd want a sleep in on your first day of holidays.
goldie: *radiates with love for this particular recruitment agency*
Rachel: so I told them you'd be in at 11. You're a shoe-in.
Wish me luck!!!!
*Maine has this uncanny ability to quit jobs only to end up with something better career-and-money-wise.« I'm finished
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congrats and good luck!!!
Much, much luck sent!! :)
Kind of bad that they added pressure for you to hurry and wrap-up your work, but it was probably worth it to get out early, eh?
Good luck with the interview!!
Coincidentally, just before I read this I was scanning the classifieds. All of these greener-grassed pastures I've been chasing each have their own painful flaws that make me passionately long for the next.
Good luck on the contract. More money and better career positioning are good things. I just hope they don't make you as miserable as some of these spots I've gotten myself into.
My fingers are crossed in your favor. My prayers are pointed toward Adelaide. My best wishes all end with your name. I have faith in your ability to be happy.
Not much more to say about that. Just... awesome!
I'm so happy for you! Be sure to let us know how the interview goes!!
Good luck! I'm sure you'll do really well :)
best wishes, somehow i think it will be a dramatic turn for the better.
You'll do great! You have the whole blogosphere behind you! Good luck!
The best of luck, though I'm sure you won't need it.
I wish I had your courage. i often wonder just what I would be capable of if I just took a few risks :)
Who knew that my rambles about temping would have a positive effect on someone? lol
Good for you. You deserve it! :)
thanks so much everyone :D. I'm really lucky to have you guys sending me positive vibes!
Gweny it was kinda like "yep, get outta here" but in a goodish way. I think my supervisor understood that once I'd made my decision I was keen to leave. and it was rather fate-like really.
poor Maine:(. It's been kind of a mixed bag hasn't it? just know I'm sending all my good karma back your way, mkay?? *hugs*
SP: hon, you were like a breath of fresh air in my life! like you said, have faith that the universe will provide. and it damn well has. thank you... I only hope I can be as inspirational to you!
October 21, 2004
it's all (mostly) good
In the last 2 days I've had 3 large Strawberry Squeeze Boost Juice smoothies, a bowl of chicken soup, 20% of a plate of pud thai (bloody peanuts!), and a soggy baguette. My mouth feels like I haven't had vitamins in a month (or like I've been partying at a rave all night ;), but other than that it's not too bad. Especially when the nice young man with many funky piercings at Boost looked twice at me yesterday morning and said 'what a lovely smile!'. Heh.
My new recruitment agent, Samantha, didn't really notice them either. I think I might be falling in love with her already.
I got excellent results on Word, Excel and typing (53 wpm ain't bad for someone who types with 3 fingers), so that combined with the ridiculous amount of academic paraphenalia I have apparently makes me rather marketable. So much so, that she said she'd like to 'exclusively represent me' in the marketplace. *faints* Funny that, seeing as it's never worked for me before. I should have done this ages ago.
The real fun stuff happened when she said she knows the HR manager at Internode, an Adelaide start-up ISP who have expanded like all hell recently to cover the whole nation. Apparently I'd be perfect as a Sales Manager there, but she just gave out two similar positions last week.
"But never fear," she said, "I'm having lunch with my friend on Friday and I'm going to convince her that Internode needs you. They can't miss out on you now!"
HELLO Samantha. Will you marry me (in a platonic, I'm-already-married kinda way)?
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I type with like 3 fingers also. And i can type like 60 wpm...which is bad either.
Aren't head hunters absolutely amazing? I
I think that's awesome that she wants to exclusively represent you. That probably means she figures she can get some serious bank for placing you. Go, Goldie!!!
I'm almost 30 and often fear "I've lost it." When a young guy (or girl, for that matter) looks twice or gives me a compliment I'm all like "Oh yeah, still got it!" I can live for days on a compliment. Yeah... I'm pathetic.
hey hun, if u r looking for a new pimp, u shoulda come to me!
i can guarantee you lots of work, just make sure you GIT MY MONEY!!
If I worked at a company named Internode, I'd call it Penetrode. I don't care if they've got the best benifits, the highest salaries, and amazing buffet bars for every meal; if you name your company something so close to the word "penetrate", you gonna get some mad flak. Mad. Flak.
Go Goldie!! Just be sure to get what you want and don't settle. You're as good as gold, Goldie, good as gold!
October 18, 2004
i'm free to do what i want any old time
Well I did it. I resigned! *giggles*
It was all very routine. I wrote a few lines on a piece of paper, printed it, signed it, and gave it to my boss with a smile. Who knew it could be so easy? Who knew it would feel so surreal.
A few people who know how I've been feeling were asking me if I felt better, if a weight had been lifted from my shoulders as soon as I gave away that fateful piece of paper.
And the answer is no... not exactly. Cos that weight actually lifted on Friday, as soon as I realised I had options. Once that was confirmed, I knew I didn't have any more excuses to stay. No wonder my heart was singing :D. Now I'm so happy it's taking requests.
Oh yeah, I forgot to say what I'm actually going to do. I made the conscious decision to go temping/contracting for a while, so I can finally get some private sector experience after 5 years of Goverment whoring. I desperately want to work in PR/Media/Marketing in either an agency or a big corporate, but there was no way they were going to look at me with only gov experience under my belt. So off I go, on to new adventures.
Oh, and the girls at work did suck :D. Icing on the cake really.
Side note: that happiness better come with Long Lasting 48 Hour Relief. Tomorrow is B-is-for-braces-Day, and I'm going to need every ounce of good humour to stop me from acting the wounded bear tomorrow night. Someone save my longsuffering!husband, please?!
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What an amazing statement of your power over your life. I'm sending you good wishes from this corner of the world!
Woo hoo!! I'm so happy for you! The few times I've resigned because I was unhappy and wanted to move onto something else, it was like the cool morning breeze swept through and brightened up everything in my life. The first few steps were the hardest but after that it was easy sailing.
It's so funny that you would say you want to go into PR/advertising/etc., there's an advert on TV here that has a girl who CONSTANTLY reminds me of you, talking about how you can get a job in a creative field... I call it the Goldie commercial!
Congrats again, I'm very excited for you!!
From what I hear, quitting your job is the best feeling in the world.
Quitting rules. Take it from me - I've quit 2 jobs already this year. Thinking about making it 3, too. Why not?
I'm so proud of you, Golders. Leaving the govies and joining the world of the corporate fatcats is a life affirming experience. You've not lived until you've witnessed first hand the lunacy of the corporation. Just remember to have fun with it, love!
Yay for you, Goldie! Good luck!!
Nothing quite like leaving on your own terms.
Awesome - Congrats! I hope you're enjoying it & I'll be thinking of you tomorrow when you get your braces. I need them but I don't want to go through the whole procedure...
Lots of luck to you on your new career journey. Oh and be sure to have some hard liquor handy for when you get home from getting your braces on!
Good for YOU, Goldie!!
Best of luck with the career change and the braces, I've only just returned from the dentist myself...
Trust me when I say I know that feeling. Quitting after 12 years was the most awsomest (is that a word) feeling I've ever had in my entire life. I do get bored from time to time but hey, I do what I want when I want. I have less money but LESS stress and that is much more important to me.
Hooray! Good for you :) It's very empowering, isn't it? You can do whatever you want to now!
YAY! Thanks so much everyone :) :) :). And Rose, I want to see that commercial now!!! Maybe it's a sign *grin*.
Either way, I know the universe has some interesting things in store for me. I can hardly wait to find out!
I, for one, am disappointed with you, Goldie. Quitting is for quitters. Being happy is not important. You must do as your government tells you. Otherwise, Saddam will go nucular on you.
I'm George Bush, and I approved this message.
I wish you all the best. I never quite had the guts to resign from the govt but re-deployed myself in a dept restructure in 1995. It was the best thing I ever did and led me to a career I love.
I'm so happy to see you back, to see that you've lost the job (wish i could lose mine!)
I just read the explanation posts and I"m sending out some big hugs from Canada.
Congratulations!!! I hope you enjoy your time temping and getting a foot into the private sector!
the darkest hour is just before dawn...
...and so I deliberately got up at 5 to see the sunrise.
Mmm. Spring! I love this week before Daylight Savings takes our bodyclocks an hour into the future. By 5.45 am, it's so bright outside the birds have stopped their morning song and wandered off to find food before harassing their mate for a shag. Romantic, eh?
General daily overview: The Moon in Sagittarius requires us to envision not just what is in our immediate environment, but the whole picture. We need to stretch our minds as far as we can in order to make the most of this phase. And we are given impetus as mental Mercury forms an easy trine aspect with eccentric Uranus, turning our most stable ideas into fast-changing quicksilver. There's an electrical charge in the air as these two mental planets work together to create a superconductive atmosphere where intellectual sparks fly and original thoughts are easily expressed.
The time seems right for a change of season.
I'm handing in my Two Weeks Notice today. Wish me luck.
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Today huh? How exciting! Enjoy it :) You don't need luck, you'll do great, and I'm sure that you will feel very relieved after you've done it.
Good for you!
Wow, good luck with that, Helen. Hope it works out for you....*hugs*
Wow, a different world literally. I'm enjoying our weather change as well... it rained all weekend long. :)
NINjoy your Spring in Oz.
Yay! No more mean girls or unecassery stress! Whoo hoo! Congratulations!
Good for you! I am so happy you'll be done with that place!
Good luck .... I'm positive you'll find better
Good for you, Goldie! Make sure you relish every minute :)
You got up at sunrise? Okay you gotta stop doing that - giving the rest of us a bad name. You sure you didn't just get up to watch raunchy birds gettin' it on (insert bad 70s porn music here)...but seriously, congrats on the brave decision to go a-tempin' around this sunny, Springy city - give the horrid gals the real heave-ho once and for all! Mojitos and Cosmos all round :)
I'm such a dink, I don't know what the time change does but I'm dying to know how your day went, darling.
No more mean girls.
Gah, that has to feel good. :)
good luck! If there is anything I can do to help your job search, let me know!
October 16, 2004
open up your heart and let the sun shine in
....can you hear that?
It's my heart singing. :D
Truly. I've had a marvelously wonderful day. Since this chick encouraged me to have a few days off to rest and recuperate, not to mention collect my thoughts, I've been feeling steadily better than I have in a long time.
The fact that CY finished her radiation treatment yesterday after 6 weeks of week-daily appointments is no small part of my relief either. I can't believe it. Four months on and it's over. She still needs regular check ups of course, but I dunno... there's a part of me somewhere inside that knows this is it. This is the end.
It's the end of a difficult time for many of us, not just myself and my family. I've talked to quite a few friends lately who've said this year has been one of the hardest they've ever experienced. But dammit, we've come out on top. A little bruised and a lot worse for wear maybe, but far more certain about what we want in life, and how best to get it. How to whittle away the shrapnel until only our truest, most heartfelt purpose is left.
I've dealt with loss. I've looked my sister's death in the face. And I looked my own humanity and frailty in the face and finally accepted it as part of who I am.
I can truly say I've learnt more in these last 12 months than I ever have in the last 12 years. The tenacity and unconditional love of my family. How precious my sisters and mother are to me. How incredibly hard my husband works... and works... and works. Who my real friends are (and I grieved the loss of more than just one or two). That fear of a thing is sometimes doubly worse than the thing itself. How I can keep on redefining the boundaries. And how my breaking point can keep on getting stretched and stretched and stretched, but that I'll never let it snap in two, even when it seems there's no other way to let the hurt burst free from my body.
They say that evolution only happens through pain and suffering. Well by bloody God, I've evolved this year, as I'm sure many of you have too. And now... now it's finally time to see some reward for all that effort, all that pain, all that testing and building of my character (which should have a nice pair of biceps on it now thanks).
Course I dunno what the reward is yet (freedom, relief and contentment work for me, thanks), but I can feel it. It's coming. I'll let you know when I find out.
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It's definitely a season of change. Sure has been over here, anyway. We live and we learn, we lose and we gain, we grow and shift and come out on top. Thanks for the inspirational post, you really did sum it up.
Here's to rewards for all of us. *clink*
Amen to everything you said sister. It's been one hell of a year and I personally have decided that 2005 is going to rock, because it has to. I can't take another year like this one so some good stuff has to happen. That's all there is to it!
I agree with Raych - 2005 will be a fantastic year! It has to be cause we deserve it so much. Glad CY has finished her weekly radiation. Hope she continues to get stronger and stronger.
Here's one reward:
Love ya Goldie. *smooch*
yay! so happy for ya goldie! the light at the end of the tunnel is always a GREAT thing to see :)
What a relief that must be! I'm glad you feel better for it :)
Next year will be a party that will last all year long, filled with lovely news for all of us.
So many people have found out just how strong they are this year. Now we get to see what we can create from that.
Enjoy your weekend :)
Glad you had a good day....wish mine was a s good as yours !!!
If wishes counted, you would have everything your sweet heart desires, that's how much I want all good things to happen for you, hon.
October 14, 2004
I went in to work this morning to finish some stuff off before I spend a few days at home recovering, and I'm so glad I did: my new phone came in a day early!
Never mind that it's taken over 12 hours for my number to port over to my new sim... it's been worth it to hold that sleek, stylish, gorgeous gadget in my grateful hands once again. *shivers*
In other news, there was no Judgement Day today. I know, I know, how boring. No biblical rain of fire. No souls being carted off screeching on their way to hell. No Governator pointing a flame thrower at Cyberdine Systems croaking 'Hasta la vista. Baby' in that robot-like accent (although I do admit, that would have been kinda cool).
Nope. I have a few nice, quiet, non-dramatic days ahead of me now to rest and recuperate. Yep. I really did say non-dramatic. 100% Drama-Free™. I'm not even going to watch daytime television.
Lord. I may even actually relax :D.
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Hi. I've had a bitch of a sinus/allergy infection for over a month which they can't kill. I'm looking sooo disgusting!
I just love your Christmas skin! In fact, your blog was the main one that cinched my decision to pick Julie. So thanks!
It's just not Judgement Day without Cyberdine, is it? Or at least a giant robot or two.
*sympathises with Gweny*. Glad I could help with your Moxie decisions hon, Julie is tha bomb :).
And yes Maine, I was rather disappointed when no molten metal man came chasing after me today as I left work. I was hoping my boss had been a T-1000 all along *sigh*.
October 12, 2004
two more days... two more days... *mutters to self*
So. My brand, spankin' new phone arrives on Thursday *woot*. 'Course I had to order it direct from Three cos my old one had been stolen. They apparently have a policy about that. Weird.
I've been so communication-starved and in withdrawal-like shakes that I didn't care in the end... maybe that's their evil plan? Wait til their customers are so txt-deprived and desperate that they can't stand it any longer and give in to their evil plans of phone domination with barely a whimper?!? *mwuhahahaha*?? Aheh.
But anyways, the next model up from my old one was exactly the same price, so at least I'm upgrading.
*steal's hubby's phone for a quick txt-fix*
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People always get mad at me because I don't have a cellular phone. The money and the possibility of a terrible addiction are the only two things keepin' me from it. It's like cocaine...sure, I could try it, but what happens if I get hooked? Then I've gotta keep buyin' shit and upgrading, and suddenly I'm broke, out of college, and living in my buddy Eight Ball's crack house.
And there ain't no amount of minutes worth livin' in a crack house for.
Oh, yay! New phone!
I'm sorry that you had to do without at all, honey.
Upgrading, for whatever reason, is coolness though. Heh.
Glad to hear you are getting your new phone soon, and that it's fancier too!
thats a nice phone.....i can't wait to get my upgrade in december.
Well, we're a cellular dealer here at work as well, so I've gone through about 10-12 different phones over the last couple of years. I basically sell my 'old' ones to people looking to get something cheaper than full-pop retail, and the phones I use are generally on the higher-end side.
However, the last phone I got, which is the Nokia 3650, has actually satiated my phone-hopping ways! This phone does _everything_ I want it to, and has the flexibility in accessories that I sometimes need. I've even got the bluetooth hands-free headset for it, that just slips over your ear...no wires!
Here's the funny part though; barely ANYONE ever calls me on it! *laughs*
Is that a sign I wonder? *sniff*
Anyway, Goldie mah deer, it ROYALLY sucks ass that you had to buy a new phone after some asshole stole yours, but it's hard not giving in to your inner-geek by replacing your favorite toys. Here's hoping the idiot drops the phone and breaks it, before he gets to use or sell it.
Oh, I _won't_ go on to mention the fairly sweet plans that dealers can get.... *evil grin*
Don't you love new gadgets!?!
New phone! Yayayayay! New toys rock. See? It was a blessing in disguise - you dont just have a new phone, you have a fancier phone!
I'm glad you got your phone back... I know how that feels, someone stole my brand new blackberry last month right out of my car. Smashed the window and everything. It's funny because it's a porprietary phone hadrcoded to work only with the network at my company and it is completely useless to them. People can be such animals.
October 06, 2004
for everything else there's mastercard
I'm feeling a little quiet the last few days. I found out today that it's going to cost me either $342 for a refurbished handset, or $464 for a new one to replace the
most prized and worshipped phone that complete wanker stole from me. I don't have much choice either - our contents insurance has said they won't cover it because I was away from the house when it was stolen, and I'm still contracted to Three, so I'd have to pay out all 22 months left on my contract if I wanted to port my number elsewhere and get a cheaper phone. Which obviously wouldn't be worth it.
In other news, busy!hubby and I are just exhausted, even though I have no real right to be. busy!hubby spent his whole 3-day weekend painting a mural (6 meters x 3 meters, ie, HUGE), and he timelapse-photographed the whole thing in 1 minute intervals, meaning I have been without camera to finish taking pics.
He also got a gig taking photos at a huge dance party Sunday night. Which ended up costing me $45 to get in (they only comped him, not me), $5 for one Lime and Soda Ruski, and $342 minimum for a new phone.
And finding the asswipe who stole it and plucking out their nose and toe hairs one by one til there were none left? Well. That would be priceless.
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I'm sorry to hear about all that, Goldie, it really is ridiculous. And those damn insurance companies... time to hunt around for a new one, methinks. I think they're all as bad as each other though. I hope things look up for you soon. xx
Goldie, when my cell committed suicide [by flying out of my hand] my provider would have been happy to replace it... For almost 400.
Instead I bought a slightly used one of eBay for 60. Looks new to me, and works great. Might be an option?
Unbelievable. Your cell fone NINsurance coverages is just like ours in the St8s IC.
Take it easy busy gurl.
I'll be FedExing a crazy man with a flame-thrower to hunt down the phone-swiping asswipe :-)
Unbelievable that the insurance didn't cover...
Unreal! That totally sucks. I'd agree with the checking on eBay thing for a phone, though. You just never know what you're going to find there, and it will probably be mondo cheaper. Then you can just call and have it activated. Think that would work?
Sorry you're having a rough week, hon.
well, so much for insurance - what's the point of it if it doesn't actually cover ya?! Hopefully you'll bump into the bloke some day and give him a well-aimed blow to the crotch area ;)
Honey, when my phone was stolen I had a meltdown.
I CANNOT function without one.
I know how it feels. ANd is sucks even more to lose valuable sms, contact info, and cute photos from the phone.
And something's weird with the black list. I couldn't comment because c*ll phone (replace the * with an e, my darlin') was apparently questionable content.
Now, seeing as I work in telecom, I can't help but wonder if it's personal :)
Dog, that makes me soooo MAD when I hear stories like that. I have a LOW tolerance level for people who take things which do not belong to them and who violates other peoples space.
It sucks, but you know, that's life. You don't have to like it, but you do have to deal with it.
People at work used to steal my fucking lunch. How screwed up is that? I mean, fuck, I'd give em money for food, but don't take mine.
Same thing with a c*llular phone. You can fuckin' get one for free with any new package. Hell, Me and Sibbie just got phones and the c*llphone company gave us 260$. Not only did we get free phones, but they GAVE us 260 bucks.
Why steal something that you can get practically for free?
It's like robbing a poor man, it makes little sense.
The last time I owned a phone like that--can't afford one these days alas--I had theft nsurance on it from my carrier. Which reallycame in handy.
thanks guys :). And Pam, thanks for the idea of eBay - I was only looking at eBay yesterday and didn't even think of searching for a phone! But I've found a couple of auctions that may end with me getting a reasonable discount.
When i was with Optus on my last contract, i did have insurance with them, but I stupidly didn't get it with Three because I thought my contents insurance would cover it. At least, SGIC told me it would *grrr*. Always pays to check out the fine print. Maybe I'll remember that next time ;).
...and then there is always 'Cash Converters', which no doubt, is where you're beloved phone will end up anyway.
after reading this entry, i managed to LOSE my crappy mobile while shopping at the plaza.
went back to all the stores i'd been into, searching under racks of toys, behind star wars figures, you name it.
turns out i dropped it in one of those female clothing stores where they pipe in techno music at full volume. i guess i was distracted or just didnt hear it hit the floor.
$464 for a new phone? Sheesh! As for the contract, can't you bail on it? Yeah, you'll have to pay a termination fee, but it sure beats paying out 22 months to a bunch of wankers that won't give you a replacement phone.
October 04, 2004
bring it, murphy
Yeah, I know I'm kvetching again, but this time I have something to kvetch about.
After listing it as one of my most treasured possessions on Thursday, my beautiful, gadgety, downright indispensible 10-week-old mobile phone was stolen out from under my nose at a nightclub last night.
Words cannot explain how much this pisses me off right now. I do have insurance, but why should I have to go through that fucking hassle just because some dickwad helped him-or-herself to my hardearned goods? And what about the irreplaceable stuff? All those contacts. All those pictures. All those messages, especially ones of love and support from friends, family, sisters and husband, sent right when I needed them most. Those memories... those reminders... gone forever.
May karma visit upon that creep with infected genital herpes and humiliatingly bad sex for the rest of their shallow little life. Fucktard.
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Ok That is just utter bullshit. I hope the guy catches a really bad case of drip dick and rots in hell.
Just call your phone and talk all sexy like, ask the bastard to meet you somewhere and then kill him. or just get a new phone via the insurance.....you know whatever "feels" right.
Have you tried calling your phone & giving death threats?
Wow that sucks, This like this piss me off to no end.
What's the point of stealing a cellular phone? It's not like you can get a whole bunch of talk time on it before the service gets cancelled. And you can make, what, fifty bucks by selling it? If you're lucky. So, basically, the guy was just being a dickweed.
That sucks! I'm with Rachel - I hope he gets drip dick!
ugh, I hate that! It's such a violation, isn't it?
Ugh! That fucking sucks! I'd say get a new one and then keep it clipped to your person whenever you go out.
I hope karma visits some horribly painful, untreatable disease upon the thief's genitals and he/she dies without benefit of painkillers. Fucking mofo dipshit.
Even though I hate mobile phones that is really crappy that someone did that. Sorry luv.
October 03, 2004
she'll be right, mate
I was having a lovely day. It's beautiful outside, I've been emailing with this chick, that chick, another chick, oh and these blokes, I'm wearing a beautiful brand new floaty pink skirt (assymetrical, cotton and cut on the bias), and I had the Breakfast of Champions (read: tea and half a block of Cadbury Breakaway).
Then. THEN. During the course of some emailings, I was reminded of my aborted attempt to sign up for audblog a couple of weeks ago. I mean, it'd be so cool to actually chat with you guys in an Aussie accent, specially since they're offering a free trial.
But because of my previous attempt, it seems to think I'm already a member when I didn't even provide a PIN last time... and it's fucking me riiiight off.
Blasted bloody mongrel drongo piece of technology (and believe me... that sounds so much better in my Steve Irwin/Muriel's Wedding accent). Way to ruin my Sunday!
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never heard that one before.
In my southern drawl, that would be:
"What kinda queer peice a'crap is theeus?
Same thing happened to me. Email them direct and they'll fix you right up. (I NEVER use the thing though. I have vocal issues...)
What's a drongo?
My version of that would have a LOT of cuss words all strung together. I won't post it here, but it has been on Rachel's site.
Less kvetchin', more audbloggin' :-)
Chase, you wouldn't have heard of a drongo cos you're not an Aussie :D. A drongo is just an 'Eediot, Stimpy,' pure and simple.
As in, "Get off the grass! You'd be a drongo to miss this hooley!". Translated: "You gotta be fucking crazy if you say you're gonna miss this gig..."
Kirstie: you're always welcome to cuss here. I should put up my Bitchypoo button..
Harv: I'm tryin', I'm tryin'! ;)
My one audblog sounds like I'm on drugs. I can't even begin to explain my accent. Southern Bell meets Ghetto Chick?
I had problems with them too though. Maybe I'll do one tomorrow since I'm busy taking all sorts of pictures for everyone. Nothing raunchy requested yet.. thank god.
Be sure to yell crikey somewhere in your audio posts! lol
September 29, 2004
my alarm clock is fired
So I had an nice early night last night, thinking I'd be up bright and early this morning and off to work on foot.
Remember that first scene from Four Weddings and a Funeral?
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got off to work late I am assuming...don't you hate when that happens?
I love that film. In fact I've seen it 22 times, at last count.
I hate mornings like that. I wake up in a panic and it just goes downhill from there.
September 24, 2004
bitch 'n' moan
I thought anti-biotics (particularly those of the horse-sized penicillin variety) were sposed to make you... you know... GET BETTER?
Well I'm on my second prescription of those fuckers and about the only reaction my body's giving me is a sore set of intestines as the HSP's eat away all the good bacteria in my body, while letting the bad stuff run rampant.
In fact, I think the bad stuff is having a party in the sinuses near my eye sockets right now, and has been for a couple of days. Not even codeine is inhibiting the pain those flithy little bastards are projecting throughout my entire head. Hell, I even have panadeine plus (that's 15 mg of codeine per tablet baby) and it's not doing a goddamn thing.
On top of all that, I'm due at the dentist for 2 fillings at 9am this morning.
Welcome to my world.
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Fuckityfuck. I've run out of the useless panadeine. Someone's gonna pay!
Well, I guess it could be worse. You might have had to go to the proctologist in the afternoon as well. All is well in the world ;)
i am sorry you are feeling sick......do you know whats wrong with you?
Hope you feel better, Holdie. There's nothing worse than a down under the weather Ozzie.
It could be a virus, in which case antibiotics won't help.
At least you don't have what happened to me after three courses of them in a row (after removal of an impacted tooth) -- a raging yeast infection.
Life was definitely HELL from that point!
Wanna trade pills? See if mine work for you and vice versa.. mine might even be a tad bit smaller.. but I have to take 8 a night..
What they lack in size they make up for in quantity.
I am having the EXACT same problem. It sucks monkey balls, dude!
I've got to agree with Margi - be careful taking all those antibiotics, you don't want to end up with a wonked out hoo-hoo!!
"a wonked out hoo-hoo!!"
Ya know, Goldie, the only reason I come here is to expand my vocabulary :-)
Get better soon.
I hope you feel better soon, goldie!
My mom felt sick like that one time for a long time, but none of the drugs worked that the doctor gave her, so she punched him in the face and she felt better, but he didn't!
I will be thinking bout you, goldie, so take care of yourself!
What a bummer! First of all - get yourself some real yogurt - no sugar, with the live acidophyllus in it. Take a tablespoonful in the morning and in the evening - to get those good bacteria back where they belong!
Next - if this round of pennicillin does not work - refuse a third round - tell the doctor to try a different type of antibiotic or you'll find a different doctor - there are tons out there and pennicillin does not work for everything! Sheesh!!!
Last of all - I hope you feel better soon!
damn, girl, 1000s of miles away from each other and we're suffering from the same ills. My sinuses have decided that they don't like this ride any more and they want off!
I feel for you, hon!
Thanks everyone, you're all so sweet! Except Adam. He mentioned the 'P' word ;P. *HUGS* and 'get well soons' to everyone who's also feeling ratshit.
Margi, thanks babe. Last time I went to the doc (Monday 11 days ago) she said it was an ear infection that had spread to my sinuses. So hopefully this stuff will work.
However, I have my doubts as to whether these are 'real' antibiotics - they took their sweet time getting my stomach annoyed, and as for my hoo hoo (as Rose called it hehehe), well, there's been no reaction whatsoever. Which is, shall we say, unusual *ahem*
And the bloody things are name-brand pills. Hmmm...
Harv, I'm glad my site works for you in some way or another ;).
Teresa thanks for the good advice babe, I'm well covered in the acidophilous (sp?) area - I have Inner Health capsules. now if only the bloody antibiotics would do something, I'd be set!
September 20, 2004
Anyone? ...Bueller? Because I seem to have gotten just a wee bit excited about our 22 degree C weather yesterday and overdosed on the ole sunshine. Hmmm. Yes.
It was worth it though. Several of my friends gave the annual City to Bay Fun Run a go in the morning, and although I piked cos I've been sick last week (that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it), I joined them to celebrate my friend Tanya's (of the now-retired Tanya's Harp fame) birthday on the beach. Yum!
However due to the fact that a) on Saturday during my retail therapy session, I had procured the very same blue babydoll top as seen on the mannequin in this shot, and b) the ambient temperature outside was just about at 'strip off n get sexy' level... well, I had no choice but to expose some flesh of the shoulder and decolletage variety. I mean, come on!
Ergo, I am now suffering for my overindulgence. But it's allll good. Between Port Power winning their semi-final (Aussie Rules footy, dontcha know. It has just about religious status here) and today's 26 degree effort from the weather gods, everyone was in a good mood at work today. So I wasn't going to let a little sunburn piss me off. =D
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October 23, 2005 02:31 AM
eeeek! Way cute top! I've been living in those all summer long!
I know, aren't they fabulous? you can have one big fat day, all summer long.
now all I need is a babydoll bathing suit...
September 15, 2004
one day at a time
You know, if you keep your eyes peeled, you can learn at least one new thing each and every day.
Today I took advantage of my sick day off work to take my sister CY to her radiotherapy treatment, and I was lucky enough to learn several new things:
- Siemens make more electronic 'gadgets' than just mobile phones.
- Matters of the heart will always separate your true friends from your acquaintances, especially if you've fallen in love with your ex-boyfriend's best friend. It doesn't matter if you have malignant cancer and therefore have changed your outlook on life to accomodate this fact.
- Corollary: these people always have an opinion and don't seem to care who it hurts or how short-sighted they're being. Also they don't seem to realise that their opinion and $2.50 will buy them a cup of coffee. Maybe.
- It apparently takes at least 6 kinds of chocolate a day to help fight anaplastic astrocytomas. At last count at my mum's place, there were 2 half-eaten family blocks of Cadbury's Three Wishes, a family block of Milky Way Coconut Rough, an untouched family block of Cadbury Dairy Milk, 3 packets of unopened Tim Tams, and probably a Mother's Day sized box of Dairy Milk Tray. Oh. And a packets of handmade chocolate-dipped shortbread bikkies shaped like hearts. One of the nurse's at the radiotherapy centre makes them :).
- That my sister's laugh can be heard down the other side of the radiotherapy ward, even when she's shut up in a room designed to stop even the smallest radioactive particle from leaking.
Here's to living life folks. ~cheers~« I'm finished
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When stuff like this happens it really does teach the value of the smallest thing doesn't it?
as they say it's always the little things that make the biggest differences
It's great that your sister's laugh penetrates the walls designed to keep radioactive particles from spreading! There's nothing like laughter to brighten someone's day. Hope all well with CY!
It's great that your sister's laugh penetrates the walls designed to keep radioactive particles from spreading! There's nothing like laughter to brighten someone's day. Hope all is well with CY!
Bless your sister! A woman's laughter is the chimes in God's orchestra :-)
Off-topic, I'm thinking you & I need to do a candy bar exchange. We don't have anything like Tim-Tams in the States :-)
you gotta love anyone with a laugh that powerful. that's just awesome.
September 13, 2004
I know you wanna snog me...
I'm officially sick. Isn't that great?
No, really. I mean it. It's fantastic. You see, I've been feeling like shit for weeks. Kinda fluey, swollen in the neck, and my sinuses have been giving me hell. Plus my ears felt funny. No, I can't describe it any better than that. Believe me, I tried.
But none of it was enough to go bother the doctor with. Hey, we all feel fluey at times. It's probably hayfever (common as sheep among us Aussies). Nothing to make a fuss about.
Then the Disturbing Symptom developed. You know what I mean. Waves of nausea are never a good thing.
So off I trotted to the doc, where I was given the uber-satisfying diagnosis of Nasty Ear Infection. One worth two prescriptions of double strength, horse-pill-sized penicillin tablets. One where I can actually say to any doubters, "Look! I wasn't whining about nothing for the past few weeks! Look at my horse pills. Look how big and anti-bacterial they are!"
I feel so damn justified right now =D.
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awww im sorry i didnt know you were feeling ill...get better soon, ok?
Normally I give hugs to comfort, but...
On second thought, why not? I've got a healthy immune system...
Ick! I thought it was just us over here getting sick like crazy!
I hope you feel better soon!
I'd hate to say that I'm glad that you're sick, but you seem somewhat relieved by it. Oh well! Hope you get to feeling better soon and your horse-sized penicillan pills cure all your aches and pains!
Ugh. Feel better soon! Being sick is really not that fun...
hope you feel better soon! doesn't it feel great to be vindicated! i love it.
Dude! We're falling apart here in blogland!
Those pills are the best, hard to swallow and they double as something to throw if the need arises
I'm sorry that you feel sick, Goldie!
When I get sick my mom gives me her remedy of hot sauce and Sprite mix togeter, and it works, but you have to have strong stomache and lots of toilet paper! The last time I drank it I farted alot that it was so bad that my hamster Rocky was holding his nose, but I felt better.
I hope you get well soon, Goldie!
Damn! You can make me laugh about the most serious shit. I hope you can get those horse pills down your throat and start to feel better soon. *hugs*
Yeah Gary gave it to me.
I feel nasty gross blah.. and not much like working.
PS I love this Shag skin. It bloody rocks!
September 10, 2004
did someone say relax and take it easy?
Ahhh... nothing like a free day off. A day where I can do absolutely anything I want. A day in which I can be a completely lazy-assed bitch and absolutely no one will care.
Surf blogs all day? Yep! Tweak my new templates so they're just right? Yep! Sit round in my fluffy duck dressing gown til 4pm, drinking cup after cup of strong tea? You betcha baby!
...that is, of course, after I go to the doctor for new prescriptions for my anxiety and asthma. And to Bunnings for the spring onions they didn't have last week, and for the weed killer I forgot to buy. And to the tyre shop to replace Buggles' balding tyres (they should make Rogaine for cars). And after I write an application for the rather snazzy job I saw in Saturday's paper. Not to mention clean up the bedroom, as my warbrobe seems to consist of the walk-in robe and about 1/3 of the carpet.
Yep. Nice quiet day off for this lil ole dramaqueen.« I'm finished
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Ahhh.... Bunnings. Finally I find a blog reference I can relate to. Plan to spend some time (and no doubt, a great deal of money) there myself on the weekend.
Friends of mine have a theory... If you visit Bunnings once on a weekend, you are destined to spend at least $50, otherwise you will return at least twice more to pick up the things you forgot to get the first time. So true.....
"Rogaine for cars"
Sometimes I don't even go outside on my days off but now that summer is winding down, I'm looking for every opportunity to be outdoors.
September 06, 2004
*breathes a nice, deep cleansing breath*
Wow. Thanks to everyone for all your comments on my last post. I just got through responding to them all (in brief, cos I have to go to work) and realised just how dramatic everything sounded when it was laid out like that. Funny that.
It's not like there haven't been good times. And it's not like I haven't been at least partially responsible for a lot of the bad ones. I firmly believe we make our own choices and lay in our own beds once we've made them. Hospital corners or no.
Which is probably why I have an anxiety disorder. But anyways...
I know I could have coped with any one or two of those situations on their own. It was just when they all came stampeding along, one after the other - BANG BANG BANG - that I started to implode. And that's why I withdrew for a bit. Simple as that.
The main thing I wanted to express was that, as I said in my comment responses, I hope you all understand how much it truly means to me to be welcomed back with open arms like this. How much it buoys me up and gives me joy, to both hear your thoughts and advice on my issues, and your open acceptance of the same from me.
What an incredibly wonderful, compassionate, generous and talented group of people I know online.
Bah! Now I might cry ;).
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Every time I read I find something else that you and I have in common. Have a good day at work and take care. The blogosphere can reap amazing awards for someone as good-hearted as you. :)
Hey there sweetie! I only just found out about your new spot. I'm so sorry to read what you and your family have had to go through, and I hope you get the chance to thoroughly stick it to those fickle bitches at your work sometime very soon.
Am I a bad person because I giggled naughtily when Goldie said "BANG BANG BANG" ;-)
Nice new layout!! Sorry, I know I'm late commenting, but ... well, no reason. I've just been lazy lately! Great look you have here Goldie!
September 04, 2004
hey kiddies... part deuce
Hello, hello. It's been a funny ole Saturday already. I was up at 5.30 and rather flushed to find screen shots of my new skins from the delectable Cherry in my inbox. I am sooo excited, you have no idea. OK, maybe you do. It's the little things giving me pleasure right now :).
Since then I've been pottering around with sexy!husband. We were going to plant our herbs today cos the moon's in just the right phase, but neither of us could be effed to even drive to Bunnings for seedlings, let alone get our hands dirty. In fact I was so tuckered out I fell asleep on the lounge floor. Ergo, I have no birthday presents for dear Mark and Amy tonight. Bugger and blasterooney.
So let's see. Last post I'd made it to June. But I just realised I'd skipped a couple of things critical to how I was feeling...
Firstly, to answer Lisa's question on how they found my URL, it was all due to my own stupidity. I gave it to 5 friends at work, who gave it to five friends, etc. With so many people logging on to look at it each day, it's no wonder it flagged in their regular analyses of non-work-related sites. And fair enough too. Yet they only knew it was me cos I was stupidly vain enough to put my pic up. Heh.
SO! Basically, once they'd taken my internet away (like they were punishing a school kid) and told me I had no career there anymore, I came off my hobby horse in a biiig way. And funnily enough, before that I was feeling the best I had in ages... I was enjoying my blog, my job, my friends... everything was going awesomely well. The cynics among you might say that the time was just ripe then for something to go wrong. Those the highest up have the farthest to fall. And fall I did. It might have run off someone else's back, but that punishment hit me at my very core.
I was going to work in a haze during that time. And between wanting to blog, yet not wanting to in case they read it, doing all my surfing at home and therefore coming in late, and feeling that there really was no point me being at work anyway if the executive managers didn't like me and I had no career... well. You can start to see why I was apathetic about getting out of bed on time.
No wonder I got myself into trouble. Hindsight is 20/20.
Still, I was starting to come good when in late April, a series of misunderstandings lead to me being frozen out by my work friends, who I was quite close with. It happened little by little. One minute we were all planning nights out and shopping every lunch time, and next minute one particular girl had decided I was on the blacklist and suddenly they were always 'too busy' for lunch, or doing something else on the weekend. Unfortunately the rest of 'em followed suit and stopped talking to me so much too.
It didn't help that one of the other girls was in my team. And because I felt so hurt and betrayed I only made half-hearted attempts at trying to reconcile it with her. Hey, they'd ousted me. What was I sposed to do? Beg? When the whole group had rejected me? Especially since none of us had ever really talked about it... no one had ever said to me 'right, you're out.' I never got closure. I think I was just sposed to get the hint. Some might ask why I let it bother me so much, but you spend more time with your workmates than you do your real friends when you think about it. (I now think it had something to do with me being in trouble at work... brushes and tar and all).
Then when I got the news in June about my sister, it was the girl in my team who's office I ran to, an hysterical mess, because we'd been so close before. This sort of thing should bridge friendship, right?
But she wasn't there. I eventually bumped into them out in the hallway, having all come back from coffee together, and I fell into a mess on the carpet, realising the extent of their rejection at the same time as the absoloutely shock of my sister's out-of-the-blue diagnosis.
It was worse the next week. I could barely sit at my desk. On the tuesday it was my birthday, and they gave me a card, a chocolate and a magazine as a group (nothing like the presents and hand-designed cards we've always done for a each other), said happy birthday, endured an awkward silence and went back to their desks. Not one word about my sister or how I was. It finally came to a head when none of them turned up for my birthday drinks on the Friday night. I don't know why I even deluded myself by inviting them. But they finally made it very clear why they weren't there when I texted them to ask.
The following week, right before CY's operation, my boss decided I needed performance counselling again (as I mentioned at the end of the last post). All of my peers had lost respect for my ability to do my job, and all my friends had bailed out. Can you see why I was feeling so bitter about going to work?
About this time I went into coping mode I think. Anything that had been 'causing trouble' in my life had to go, along with anything that made me think too much. My brain was having enough trouble coping with so much change and hurt and shock that I think it just shut down.
Ergo, the ole DQ fell by the wayside. Even though you guys had always accepted me for who I was, and sent monumental messages of support from around the globe. Even though I had been so happy being here with you. There was so much dissonance in my head around blogging... memories of some of the very best and very worst experiences all fighting for precedence, that I needed to reject it for a while. So I could sort everything else out. So I could heal. So I could help my family heal.
I spent most of my spare time in July in front of the heater on the beanbag, reading Bridget Jones' Diary 1 and 2, and then Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix for the third time. Comfort food for the soul.
It was damn good actually.
I coped by focusing on all the good stuff in my life. I have a fabulous group of friends outside work. CY seemed to be on the mend. We threw a fabulous bash for sexy!husband's 30th at the end of July, which was also damn good (70 people, a DJ friend of G's and a shitload of alcohol. Awesome.). And he took me away for a surprise holiday to Melbourne for our 2 year wedding anniversary on the 10th of August. Fabulous.
Somewhere in there the ISP ate our database, which is why I can't post at my old site, and neither can you post comments. It was hard enough to recover all my archives, let alone get the database up and running again.
Maybe the universe was trying to tell me I shouldn't've been so stubborn back in February about moving to new digs.
Anyway, we came back from Melbourne on the 10th of August, and on the 11th we found out that CY's tumour was malignant. *exhale*
Two days after that, my bosses had decided I wasn't improving at work (would you be, with so much apathy, depression and other stuff to deal with? Not to mention bitchy girls refusing to even look at you in the hallway?) and decided that it was high time they gave me a written formal warning. That meant (and still means) that if I fuck up, they can fire me at a moment's notice.
Believe me, I'm sitting her wondering if this post is a good idea. I have no idea if they know about this site yet. I'm hoping not. I've looked at it once from work, but only once, and told no one about it. Who knows. I'm almost past caring.
So yeah. There you go. The last 8 months seems to have been all about the universe teaching me and mine a lesson we won't forget in a hurry. I've had my victim moments, and my moments of complete and utter optimism and strength.
In my 'weaker' moments (mainly in the last 3 weeks) I've contemplated cutting myself to let the hurt out. To watch it all bleed away, slowly... cos it's the only outlet I can see for release, even though I've NEVER done anything like that before. I've cried my heart out hysterically in the toilets at work more than once, asking why my family, why me, and thought about going back to my desk, printing out a lovely long and detailed suicide note (mentioning the bitchy girls and my boss in particular), and slitting my wrists in the toilets. Just so they could come find me.
Sometimes I really earn the title of this blog, eh?
But I'm strong enough and experienced enough to know that the feelings pass eventually. Those who suffer from depression know about 'the hole', and if you wait long enough, you can eventually climb back out. I'm lucky I have such an understanding and caring husband, let alone my family and friends. But lucky him gets to see the bulk of it.
Aa a status update on the work sitch, I have my final meeting next week to resolve the formal warning. My boss has indicated to me that she thinks everything's fine and there should be no probs with the warning being lifted. I realise I've made her sound like a dragon, but I guess in her situation I would have wondered what to do myself. She has a business to run. We're actually on very good terms, quite friendly really. But it was my mum (a manager herself)who gave me the best piece of advice on how to eventually resolve it all: "unplug yourself from what you see as the unfairness of the whole situation, stop seeing your boss as the enemy and start thinking of her as your best ally. Only she has the power to help you through this. That way you both win." And, like most times, my mum was right. I was just so caught up in my emotions that I couldn't see it before.
I realise that I got myself into a lot of this mess, and I take full responsibility for my actions. Even when I'm feeling like a victim, it's because I'm cursing myself for being so stoopid ;). But i can't think about the maybes and what-ifs. I'll drive myself even more insane if I do.
And as for dear CY... well, this post is as much as we know. She's in radiotherapy 5 days a week, for 6 weeks. We can only hope the side effects will be minimal and that the malignant crap will be excised from her head completely. And hopefully (metaphorically speaking) from mine too.
So. It's officially 'new start' time. A new chapter in my life... New blog, new group (thanks so much for taking me on, Pixy and the MuNuvians! You guys ROCK!) and soon a new design.
It's all downhill from here.
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Play victim and I'll black your eyes again.
Holdie has returned and shared some of the current hell to which she has been subjected. Lately, it seems as though all my friends are in hell. And I'm having a good time with the good things happening to me,...
September 5, 2004 12:30 AM
Return of the Queen
Holy Cow, Dramaqueen is back! Sweet....
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October 23, 2005 04:00 AM
I read it.
I understood it all.
And the one that hit me the most was about cutting yourself to let it all out. I have done that, too-and you know what? It works. It really does.
For about a day.
Then all the bad things come flooding back in, plus a bunch of other fun toys like guilt, embarassment, etc.
If you want to vent and write, go for it. If you want to talk, I'm on email, babe. Things are going better, things are improving. I'm not going to say something trite like "Screw those girls!" since I know how much that hurts.
All I can say is: I understand. Really. And am here if you need to talk.
Dear, dear helen. I knew you would. And same goes for you if you ever want a sympathetic ear across the other side of the globe.
I'm so glad to hear that the fog is lifting.
Man, all of that stuff with your place of work is just nutty. I'm glad you're boss is helping you work through it though. She actually sounds very nice, and certainly helpful. I wish you the best there.
You know, I don't worry about you when you're talking about cutting here. I do worry about you when you disappear and don't answer emails. I'm sure that I would be less worried if this happens again. But while you're feeling better will you choose a central contact person in the blogging world to keep updated just in case you should go missing again? Please?
I wish you'd of told the QW! about this sooner. We could have had those bitches at work killed or tortured or something. You know, when we become presidents of the world?
But seriously, I truly understand how you feel. Being "out" is no fun and you're good people, so when that happens that just makes it worse.
Face the fact about work, the worst thing they can do is fire you, and from personal experience, it usually ends up being the best goddamned thing to ever happen to you. Really.
We've missed you and your glorious insight in the world of the Ozzies. Most blog lovers enjoy living vicariously through other bloggers and we accept the good times with the bad. It's like marriage, only with more sex.
That was a joke.
So was this.
But not this.
OMG. 1) let those work bitches have each other. They suck.
2) Cutting yourself is a bad, bad idea! Because....OW! and also because it's messy and scars you and when you're in a better emotional place you don't really want to be reminded of the crap times, right?
3) Are there no job openings where you live? If that place is sucking the life out of you it would be nice to not have to go there.
4) I think you rawk! I only know what I've read on your blog, but I would totally hang out with you and not snub you on your birthday.
Hang in there!
Glad things are somewhat on the mend for you so don't lose faith! Sometimes the dark spots in our life just help us appreciate all of the good things in our lives. You're a strong person and if the "girls" at work didn't hang with you through these tough times, then it just goes to show you what kind of "friends" they really are. You're better of without them.
Wow. Goldie, I've got so much I want to say to you, I don't know if I can fit it all in here.
In a previous life at a previous job, I went through EXACTLY what you described with the gaggle of girls and how they shut you out. A bunch of us went on a vacation together, came back, and two weeks later the "leader" of the group decided she didn't like me any more. So eventually it permeated the whole group of girls, since the squeaky wheel gets the grease. So let me tell you one very important thing about that situation. Women who feel the need to blacklist you or run around behind your back turning other people against you, do it because they are insecure, and they are threatened by you. Don't you dare take it as a bad thing; if they are petty enough to snub you and be such raging bitches, just tell yourself it's because they know you're amazing, and they know they're shit.
Now. Cutting. I'm not a cutter but one of my best friends is. I'm a bulemic, nearly the same thing. I can really understand the allure of creating pain for yourself; it's a control mechanism. I'll honestly tell you that if you ever feel the desire to do that and you want to email with someone, I'd be here for you. In addition, I'd like to shoot you over to my friend's blog: anima-x.blogspot.com - Shanna is an amazing girl and has some really honest stories about her experience with cutting. We don't abuse ourselves to hurt ourselves. We abuse ourselves because our lives are out of control, and for just a moment we want to be able to control the outcome of something. Hang in there.
Your sister and family are continually in my prayers. I also hope you can reach some kind of accord with your boss... at the very least perhaps down the road if you choose to leave there, she will give you a positive reference.
And... the comment about the phase of the moon and planting an herb garden hit this "Kitchen Witch" right where it counts. Good news is, there'll be another good moon phase. :)
And - doppleganger? Long lost sister? Indeed! I'll lean on you, if you'll lean on me!
All these "ands." Whew!
Goldie, you are the strongest, most-talented woman in the world.
You can live through anything, see it clearly, come out on top, then still have the ability to weave a perfect tale out of it. I mean, who doesn't ride along on your rollercoaster when you tell a story? Who doesn't empathize? Who doesn't understand everything and get sucked in to your life? You may be the greatest writer living today.
Fuck those girls at work.
In the last year I've gotten really good at just cutting people out of my life who do nothing positive for me (and that is what real friends are for). Sure you're going to have 'bad moments' where you need friends to lean on but if the so called 'friend' is being a bitch 24/7 and calling your husband all sorts of names and well ok just being a negative person then it's time to cut them loose.
Sounds like you've got a great bunch of friends outside the office (which is always best) and you've got a great friend over here in Phoenix (or wherever the Air Force may take us). Ever want to get away just give me a buzz. You know how to reach me.
I learned the hard way that you can't ever really trust the people you work with, no matter how much you think you're friends. I'm so sorry this all happened to you. Just remember you have real friends outside of work, and that work is just that, work -- a way to pay for having fun in your real life!
just thinking of you and yours through all of this and sending you good wishes and vibes
I'm so glad you can see light from your hole. You've gone through more than I can possibly imagine, and you're still positive. You truly are amazing. Keep up the writing. It helps more than anyone can imagine.
We all love you, Hel. Stay strong.
Goodness - drama upon drama! I guess you earnt your moniker, eh? Good to see you back anyway - I'll have to see if I can edit the old bogroll ;)
It all sounds so dramatic when it’s all laid out like that, but there have been some amazing times too. I just wish it hadn't happened all at once ;). Six months ont he rollercoaster baybees!
Thank you Linda darling. I'm so sorry I worried you when I disappeared for a bit. Just know that I do have a pact with the husband that he is to let the blogging community know if anything happens to me. He's under strict instructions to post anything and everything! I made the pact with him after I got brushed by a speeding car while crossing the road a few months back :).
Ev, I'm coming to realise the exact same thing. sometimes what seems to be the worst may actually be the best thing to happen to you. I just hate having my security threatened *sigh*. maybe I have to give up my connection to some of that... And don't worry. I promise there will be more aussie blogging about beach babes in bikinis and the like, just for you ;).
Kristie honey, thankyou :). you're not so bad yourself, chick! Linda was right to say she wasn't worrying about me and cutting myself though. it was a passing thought when it all just got too much one afternoon, right after I found out about the possible side effects of CY's radiotherapy. the stuff in the toilets at work has happened 4 or 5 times lately, and a few more besides, but I would never do it. my brain seems to get enough satisfaction from just entertaining the thought. I'm getting through it with my counsellor :).
yayaempress, thanks babe. that's one thing I've told myself many, many times. almost like a mantra in the end, because we all sit within 10 meters of eachother!
Rose darling, that is almost exactly what i went through with my girls! It's funny how the ringleader can just make a decision like that and everyone will follow suit. I actually know it's because we're both extroverted and strong, but she's way more conservative 'on the outside' than me... ie she hates to think what people think of her, but she does all sortsd of stuff in secret then publicaly denounces anyone who does it in public. so when I bucked against her trend one too many times, I was out the door. Sound familiar?
thanks also for the link to your friend's site, and the wisdom about abusing ourselves. you're right on with that one, and I knew why i was feeling it when I felt it. which is why i didn't do it. I hope that makes sense ;). Oh, and I eventually got my herbs planted! Love being a certified kitchen witch!
Maine-y baby! How lovely are you! I think there are plenty of other talented bloggers out there who are vying for the title of most talented writer though. like... YOURSELF for example. And Helen at everydaystranger.mu.nu (see comment above) weaves a beautiful tale any time she puts figers to keyboard :). And... gawd, I could go on. I don't associate with non-talented bloggers, you see ;).
Rachel! that's the exact stage I'm going through - learning to cut people out of my life. I spose it's been gettign to me though looking at how many people are left vs how many I've lost or cut out... the latter figure has risen dramatically in the last few years. I'm only now learning to reconcile with that. And hell, one of the reasons I fell out with my bitch friend was because she DID say things about my husband. Funny that, hey?!
Ith darlin', that's it exactly :). I got too caught up, but I'm learning to keep myself divorced from work now.
Thanks UG :)
It's great to be back Kevin, drama and all ;)
G-Fry, I love you all too! I hope you all understand how much it means to me to be welcomed back with open arms. truly. and I'm there for all of you too, whenever you need it :). I might even have an emo-crying moment now ;).
Adam... it's the story of my life ;). Hence, I am the DQ! mars in leo eat your heart out.
welcome back! you are fabulous. remember, there are many jobs out there in the big wide world. don't obsess about any one of them to the point of hurting yourself. you are just more important.
(p.s. post sometime about how you want us to update our links to you.)
Great to see you back. I've updated your link on my site. The new design looks amazing too, very well done. A+ See me after class! ;)
Sounds like you got a ton of good advice and good wishes from everyone. I've been working like crazy and I'm so far behind in my reading, I only just got here today for this post!
When bad things happen in my little world, I always ask myself - what's the worst thing that could happen because of this? Once I realize I can cope with the worst, it makes it easier to handle what's really happening.
Your mother sounds like a terrific woman! She gave you some great advice about work and even better - you took it. Good for you!
Last of all the people you work with... geeze I so feel your pain. I've had people who have hated me - and I have never figured out why. It's very very hard to be excluded from a group especially if everything was okay and then bam! I like the suggestions above about keeping work separate from being friends. It's difficult, but in the end it's much easier on your psyche.
Anyway, sounds like things are finally starting to pull out of the hole they dropped into. I'm so glad!
September 03, 2004
I totally forgot how many of you there are. Thanks for being so wonderful with your comments on the last post - I've read them all and appreciated them wholeheartedly in between (slowly but surely) visiting everyone on my blogrolls, and surfing for pics for my new layout. Actually, I've found a couple of gorgeous images, after surfing 9 sites and probably over 250 pics. Thanks to Cherry for being so gawddamn patient with me sending her multitudes of jpgs as a form of talking to myself about which one I wanted.
Oh yes, I forgot to mention - Web Divas (also staffed by the bitchalicious rachel) are doing some fab design work for me (along with blogmoxie). What a bunch of talented chicks I know...
It's been a funny ole day. Our dear lil cat Josie had what one might call a mild dose of the trots last night, resulting in some lovely skid marks all over our slate and carpets and a wonderful perfume pervading the entire house. Charming.
And today was also my sister's first day of radiotherapy treatment for her tumour. I went along for moral support as did my other sister Lauren, and my mum of course. Things haven't been all easy with this. We found out last week that the radiotherapy may not be side-effect-free when administered to the brain area, as it may be on other parts of the body. CY may be in for anything from blindness to losing her ability to have children. Not to mention losing some intelligence. And any hair loss may either be permanent, or grow back completely different from what it is now. IE, one woman had brown wavy hair and ended up with jet black straight hair. Spooky n weird.
I also saw her CT scans for the first time ever today. I have deliberately avoided them cos I've always been queasy of inside-body parts, but she made me look. That bloody tumour took up almost a quarter of her brain area in it's thickest part before they took it out in une (thank god they got it all). I could see where her cerebrum had been squashed over by it. Fuck me.
The main problem is with CY thinking she's going to be an utter freak, and that no one in the future will want to be her friend, let alone love her romantically. That coupled with some lil issues around 'control' and 'independence' between her, Lauren and my Mum isn't making things easy (and believe me, I'm caught in the middle cos I can see both sides of the story... not that my mum has really done anything wrong in my eyes. Seriously ill people have so many things to deal with, and losing their independence is certainly one of them for my dear sis). But she coped amazingly well considering. My Dad has also come for a visit from Hong Kong. Which is surreal. I haven't seen him for ages, you see.
Having Aunty Flow (painters and decorators) round to visit this morning hasn't helped either *sigh*.
So now that I've been so focused on my new design and a whole heap o' other 'day-to-day' stuff, it's suddenly got to 11.30 and I won't be continuing my story from yesterday just yet. Thanks again to all for your encouraging words and thoughts. They mean the absolute world to me!
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goldie - i am so happy to see you back amongst us! yay! the queen has returned!
Many thoughts and prayers go out to your sis today, along with the rest of the fam. But you know that.
AF along with all the rest of this crap...good God, I'm surprised you have the energy to blog. Though, it's these exact scenarios that make blogging such a cathartic experience sometimes.
Here's hoping for a more gentle tomorrow. :)
As I told you 3 months ago I'm still praying for your sister and your family.
You've been in my thoughts this whole time.
Goldie dear! I've missed you so.
I do hope everything works out well for your sister. Maybe if her hair does turn out jet black they could figure out how to give her a white lock. Readers of David Eddings novels would lust for her.
It sounds like she should have a good chance since they were able to remove the tumor surgically. My sister had to go thru radiation to the head and luckily it just made her a little dizzy afterwards. So I'll be hoping for side effect treatments for your sister too.
I'm here for a cuppa and half a dozen Tim Tams :)
Whoa, lotsa stuff's been happening huh...crossing all my crossable body parts for your sis's recovery - and big bummmers about your job.
Let's hope the all new Mu Drama Queen helps you get your head round all these major dramas, babe.
Now lets open those bloody biccies!
Do me a favor. Tell your sister to focus all that energy she's spending on the unknowns on the fight, instead. Tell her to envision the chemo attacking the renegade cells. Tell her that she has to think that way to win the battle AND the war. And tell her I'm praying for her.
hey hon, so glad to see you back! send your sister my best wishes - if there is anything I can do to help, like provide information etc, let me know!
You've been so busy I'm surprised you find time to blog at all! We're sending good thoughts & wishes your way - and your sister's way, of course.
Many many wellwishes for you, and your sister, and I can sympathize with everything you're going through. Looking at CT's is scary (I've been looking at CT's recently of my mom's lung tumor, though it's benign) and facing the unknown in a medical situation is something I wouldn't wish on anyone.
You're in my thoughts.
September 01, 2004
hey kiddies, learn a lesson from grandma goldie mkay?
Heh, I think a couple of people got the wrong end of the stick with my last entry... I meant I was going to spring-clean my blogroll of course. Although I'm not sure I did too much actual cleaning. Cos that's a dirty word an' all.
(Note: I apologise for the severe lack of extended-entryness. I hate it when they're not 'collaspsible' and take you to another page, and I can't be bothered installing a script tonight. Yes, I am anal about my blog - if I can't do it right I just won't bother. Oh, and apologies to those who've heard all or part of my melodramatic hooey already *kiss kiss*)
So. Now I'm sitting here, with a minor codeine-withdrawal headache, wondering exactly where to start.
Do I start with our ISP woes? (I mean, what kind of ISP gives their clients 36 hours notice via email to back up all their files or they're screwed? It's not like they didn't have enough space on their
porn other servers to back up some small personal sites. But then THAT would constitute actual customer service, which I'm sure they'd never want to be accused of /rant)
Do I start with why I finally stopped writing a couple of months back, after months of negative reinforcement?
Do I start with my sister's tumour actually being diagnosed as malignant 3 weeks ago, after we were told it was very likely benign?
Oooooh... the DRAMA!
You know what? I'm so bloody tired I can't even make up a silly story in an attempt to make you laugh. Instead, I'll give it to you straight:
Back in February (yes, it goes back that far), I was severely disciplined at work for certain entries I wrote on my blog about how 'things' were 'done' there. They took my internet away as a punishment for three months, even though it severly hampered my ability to do my job and even though I'd never made a post from there (not since i was on blogspot anyways). I was also told I had no career there amd that i was lucky not to be going to court. Even though i never used any names. Even though I was only venting my feelings, not stating anything as fact.
I was given an offical warning straight up. Which I prolly should have seen coming. But anyway. And I prolly should have switched domains straight away to give myself some peace of mind. But anyway again.
I wasn't going to let them get to me, you see? I wasn't going to let them win by switching domains. But I was constantly wondering of course. And knowing that they were monitoring everything I wrote, my stubborness eventually lead me to censor myself. Any idiot could have told me I was going to do that. So they won anyway. Bloody pride.
I'd already developed a major blogroll problem (mainly cos you're all just too cool). That coupled with my addiction to surfing and *gasp* commenting on other people's sites, meant that I was getting to bed after 1 most nights, then getting up at 6.30, surfing some more, and getting in to work late. Even though I was already in trouble.
When it comes to my little pleasures I have very little discipline (as many of you will know). So of course this turned into a vicious cycle. I was always in late, always tired, and as my job as an editor requires a certain, shall we say, attention to detail... well, it wasn't long til I was in major league issue-town.
About this time my anxiety and panic attacks came back with a vengeance, and I finally pushed myself to visit the doctor and start on what sexy!husband and I refer to as my 'brain pills'. Yum. Little white cruchy ovals full of serotonin producing-goodness. I still don't know why I waited so long.
Meanwhile my boss started performance counselling sessions in an effort to 'rehabilitate' me. I was nearly through when my sister was diagnosed with her brain tumour in june. I went literally to pieces for a week, which i took as sick leave (this was less than a 1/3 of what I had accrued). And according to my boss I'd 'lost my focus' once again. She sat me down and gave me a good talking to when I came back to work. She was actually really MEAN to me. She told me I had to separate my personal life and my work life and just get on with things.
I suppose some people might think that your 25 year old sister being diagnosed with cancer was an everyday emotional occurence that you could just block out and keep working, but I'm just not one of them.
Fuck this for a joke, I just lost half my entry. No seriously!
To be continued (cos there's no way I'm going to soend another half-hour rewriting what i just wrote ;)
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Fuck that bitch. I'd probably have hired someone to punch her in the face. Twice. With Brass Knuckles. Let's see her work through that pain. Ugh. *Pats Goldie on the back* It's okay Goldelen, Holdie, when life starts kicking you in the gut, get up and take it out on some evil bastard at work. Extreme violence is the way to go. QW! in '04!
Oh man, screw them. I had a boss once who, when my mother had a tumor in her lung, lectured me on the reasons why I should take phone calls about her condition in a vacant office and close the door (I had no door, it was a cubicle farm) for my own privacy.
A week or two later, I was chastized for leaving my desk in the middle of the day to "talk on the phone on a personal call."
Odd coincidences, but still sucky nonetheless. Can't wait to see part 2.
Oh Goldie - I don't know what to say. I'm so sorry things have been so rough for you. Even more sorry about your sister and the cancer thing - how awful to be told everything is fine... but now it's not.
As for the job - start looking! Find somewhere else to work. This is not not not the place for you. They'll probably tell you next that you can't blog - period - because it's against their policy or some wonky nonsense. They'll try and find out if you're surfing from home or something. Geeze!!!
I'll be waiting for the rest... it feels like the other shoe is about to drop. *sigh* Hang in there - we're with you.
Not quite understanding how you could get in trouble for blogging about work when you didn't name any names. How did they get a hold of your domain URL?
Either way - - sorry to hear that you have been (are) going through all this . . when it rains, it pours down under!
*Big Hug* to you, goldie - keep your chin up, girl!
I am so so sorry about your sister and everything. I know we don't know the whole story yet, but I know how bad the cancer thing sucks.
I'm sorry to hear about your sister, Goldie, and that mean Boss!
I wish I lived near you and I was a girl so I could give your boss a hard Newgy to her head!
Hey girl.. you need me to take a trip out to Aussie? I'll go on an ass kicking spree.
I am sorry I haven't been to your blog. I didn't know your address chnaged and I have ben gong to your old one and wondering why you haven't been blogging...I hope I can catch up to the few moths i have missed. I'm sorry! :)
Part 2... in anticipation... baited breath... happy ending sought...
Hunger felt... somewhat thirsty... sanwich acquired... Sprite added... feeling better...
This is my first time here and I just want to say 2 things. First off I'm sorry about your sister. I know how hard things like that can be on framily and loved ones. 2nd tell your boss to go fuck herself. I'll do it for you if you want. She has no right to tell you how to feel. What would she do if she was in your position? She'd probably take all the time off she wanted and that would be ok. But it's not ok if you do it? whatever. Next time she tries to have a little 'chat' with you tell her you quit. you don't need that kind of stress added to what's already going on in your life.
I had no idea about what happened in your workplace. I'm really sorry to hear that. It's sad that they took away your Internet as if you were a child and they took away your video games. That really doesn't say much for them as employers, to be honest.
I'm just glad you're back! It's nice to have you around again. :)
I'm glad to have found your new site, but oh no.
I'm sending positive vibes in your direction for your sister.
Hugs to you and your sister. A bitchslap and a stranglehold for your boss. (I think my former boss may be related to yours....)
Welcome home sweetie! I missed you so! I am so sorry about your sister. ((hugs)) I really am glad you're back.
So, Moxie eh? I can't even wait. Who's doing you? Joelle? Julie? Kathy? Mel? I can't wait to see it!!!!
Wait. Grandma? Are you nuts? I do believe you are younger than me...
Welcome back! We're all still loyal fans!
First off, fuck your goddamn stupid cunt of a boss. What she said was braindead and completely uncompassionate. She shouldn't be allowed to breathe the same air as us decent people, and she sure as hell has no business being in a supervisory capacity. Retarded cow.
I am very sorry about your sister. Sending positive thoughts your way. (((hugs))
As for getting in trouble over your blog, well, that's bullshit, too. You didn't use any names or anything, so I fail to see how they could do anything (legally) beyond telling you to use your time more productively. Idiots.