Wednesday October 13, 2004
ooohhh... melrose place!
You light-hearted Geminis are often the quick-footed players who seem to have a good time even in difficult situations. Now, however, you might be too stressed to enjoy yourself fully as your key planet, Mercury, tries to overcome the resistance of Saturn. You could be afraid of losing what goodies you already have and this makes you want to clench your muscles and hold your breath. Unfortunately, this will have the opposite effect of what you desire. Be real, but remember this stress will soon transform into easy expression.
Lord. Doncha hate it when your horror-scope is right on the button?
I'm sick again. I don't think I ever got over the last infection, even though I did everything my doctor asked me. It's frustrating me that I can't be my usual fun, flirty, happy self, either online or in 'real' life, because I'm either sick or stressed. It's a bit of a vicious cycle - one always leading to the other. And it can all be traced back to one thing... where I work.
Even though I've made a lovely new friend there who sweetly listens to me when I'm down and shares an amazing amount in common, the place still craps the hell out of me for various reasons.
Most of them are of the female human variety, and their nasty little habits of lowering their voices when I walk around the corner, or all standing at the girl beside me's cubicle and planning what they're doing this Saturday night. Even though they know I was unceremoniously dumped from the group. It doesn't help that I feel one of them is hampering me from doing my job either.
The New moon in Libra eclipses the Sun at 10:58 pm EDT, releasing change in relationship dynamics. Every month, the New Moon initiates the next emotional cycle by eliminating what needs to be left behind. An eclipse increases the level of intensity by bringing situations to a head. Additionally, our rational mind is given a reality check as Mercury the Messenger comes to square stern Saturn. We run into a problem with authority if we haven't done our homework. Ideas that cannot be justified now must be changed.
Guess today is Judgement Day.
Bring it, Libra New Moon-Eclipse-like-event. I need the strength to deal with all this shit once and for all.
posted by goldie
@ 09:38 AM on 10.13.04
That sucks when women or so-called friends are doing crap like that to you. I'm going through some catty BS myself.
I understand how you are feeling in your work situation. Personally, I loathe working with women. I have even made choices to my own detriment professionally to avoid environments such as the one you are in because I am well aware of the impact it has upon me. I must admit i much prefer to work in the 'blokey' pseudo-military Police environment where this sort of behavour is generally limited to the Administration staff. Funnily enough, it is similar behaviour that led me to cease maintaining my blog. Still love reading yours though Keep it up :)
Women can be so mean, and it starts young. Just ask my seven year old about the girls on the playground that tell her she can't play with them.
Hang in there! I don't envy you!!!
stab them and then plead insanity!
I know the icky feeling well, unfortunately, and it sucks seeing someone else go through shit like that from their workplace. You spend so much time there, you may as well enjoy it! :)
You can do it, and you will feel soooo much better for it once you have :)
Women can be such cows. I can't believe it sometimes. For a long time, my closest friends were men, but that's changed now that I've made some really great female friends :)
Be proud. You are brave enough to know what it is that you want, and go out and get it, not settle for second best, just because it pays the bills. There is where it changes. Remember it, and enjoy it!
It sure does Lori hon. It doesn't help that I have a pre-disposition to make a drama out of everything. but sometimes I just wonder why it has to be so hard! I hope you work out your catty issues too *hugs*.
*mega huggles* in return Ith!
Lyndal hon, I was hoping you'd start up again! I know what you mean about working with men, although I had an equally bad experience working with engineers that lead me to pick on every guy I knew for bein sexist when they prolly weren't. hehehe
awah chaos-girl, that's sad isn't it?! Poor lil thing. It must be ingrained in us women to treat each other this way or something... I'm sure she has her mother's strength though and will grow up to be a gorgeous young woman :).
Ashlar: believe me, I've thought about it. Don't tell the cops. Cos I actually am insane mwuhahahaha.
I know you know that feeling SP hon. Thanks for being there for me, and for being a wonderful, generous inspiration :). I rang some places today when i got home so we'll see what happens - I already feel much lighter for it! And I also used to be more friends with guys than girls for the same reason - I seem to inspire this whole competitive thing in other women. It's so annoying.